having a hard time grieving

[TwistedMalice]

in 2 years I have had multi sugeries and deaths, misscarriages and I had to have my tubes clamped and my uterus burnt out. I can no longer have children, its hard on me. I know becuase of my medical issues and my sons issues the doctors were right and I felt it was right but I still regret, Ive been in counciling and on medication to help me cope, but its still far to hard. I have lashed out, cried myself to sleep, guilt, blame, and I can't seem to get a grip on my emotions I just hope that the counciling will start to help and people I live with or my friends can be supportive and understanding while I go threw this. My mother had the same things happen fallowing in her foot steps, but I need her becuase she has been threw it, so Im in IL in hopes that I threw my mother can at least cope if not a lil bit more then I was.

[sunnymoon627]

Jun. 5, 2009 at 6:06 PM

I had to be sterilized before I wanted to as well.  I'm not on meds, but every time I hear of someone finding out they're pregnant or seeing undeserving women with babies it feels like a knife through the heart.

I hope your pain passes soon.  I've been sterile for almost a year.  It's still quite difficult to deal with.