Dreams of tomorrow...

[QuillonsMom]

Jake and I were spending a late evening together (as usual afer babys sleeping and dishes are done.) We had just finished watching a movie and he was on the way to bed. Anyways, we got into a conversation about traveling and moving around. He has always told me that he "has to have roots." He is very close with his family and wants to stay nearby. Well, tonight he told me that he has alwyas wanted to travel around and see the country, and wishes he could! He also said that I would have to drag him unconscious onto a plane due to his fear of heights. LOL. But the point is that I have been wanting to move after I graduate college, and never thought Jake would leave. I love Portland, but the rain gets me down, and my allergies are horrid! It is tortuous to live here sometimes, like today, when I am doubled and tripled up on allergy meds and still super congested and covered in hives.

I have a long way to go in school, and older family I want to stick close to for now...but the possibility of moving or traveling when I am done is so exciting! I will be an RN with a bachelors degree from the best university hospital in oregon. I will have plenty of options...and we agreed that when Im done and we get on our feet that were gonna have another baby and Jakes gonna stay home while I work, so we both get the experience.

I jsut have always tried to live my life fully, until I had Quillon. I have always wanted to feel like that if I died tomorrow I would feel like I have seen and done all that I can within reason...of course with kids your life slows down. And Im totally great with that! I love my son and he is the best thing to have ever happened in  my life! I am thinking of the future, when we are old, and Jake will be inevitably leaving me earlier than we want him to (due to health problems). I dont want to look back and say "shoulda woulda coulda..Im sorry honey I love you goodbye" I want us to have no regrets that we didnt live or see enough. Im not a total fool or have ridiculous dreams of living in other countries and moving all the time, thats no life for children. But just to see places and different cultures around the country. Take vacations to cool places...yeah....I would like that. Anyone have any tranquilizers?? LOL