How my life has changed.... thanks to my 2 angels :)

[newmom28]

I'm a 30 year old mother of 2 beautiful children and a wonderful hubby, great family and friends, but  my life hasn't always been as good as it is now... i'm an alcoholic in recovery (sober for a little over 5 years now.. I started drinking after high school graduation.. at first just on the weekends.. like everyone else... right??? Thats what I thought... When I first started drinking it was like I was transformed into the person i've always wanted to be.... not the shy, unsure low self-esteemed individual i've always been. For once I felt ok in my own skin... I had found what i've always been lookng for... It really didn't take long until my weekends started sooner and lasted longer. I've been through soooo many jobs.. relationships. Drinking went from being occaionally fun to being something I HAD to do, I was trapped and there was NO amount of will power that could get me out!!  I lost friends, trust from loved ones... went from having my own place to being homeless... sleeping on various couches and not always knowing where I wa going to sleep.. I had lost my true identity and could no longer look at my own reflection in the mirror..... There was even a time when I actually tried to take my own life... I was at my ultimate bottom.... AA has given me EVERYTHING back and then some... but most of all it gave me.... ME.. I met my hubby at an AA meeting and together we have 2 absolutely gorgeous children... Noah is 3 and Ava is 7 months old... they can be sooo difficult and challenging, but they're my whole life and my life is a million times better than it used to be.... They're the reason I wake up each morning and always strive to be the best person I can be!! Life is truely good!!