God

[chela17]

Dear God,

I know you know what is exactly on my mind and how miserable I have been feeling. I hope that by writing my thoughts/prayer, you will give me the relief. I know that whatever is going to be done is in you will, but I ask you to please help me through this time of need. Please help me and him work it out. I feel like I shouldn't even be asking you this. I feel that I should be asking you to help me be strong as we go through our breakup. Something inside is telling me to ask you to help us through this.

I made a big step today and called a counselor. I did not expect her to have such an open willingness to hear me out. I did not expect her availability to be so soon. To my surprise she said was able to see us as soon as today at 6:30pm or even tomorrow at 7:00pm. God, please let this be a sign that this is a new start for us, that we will continue to grow. Please God, let him be willing to accept the invitation. Please God, please let this be a sign. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this as you have seen. Every time I talk about it, I start to cry. Help us work it out. Help us be the couple that we were 2 months ago. God, please help him open his eyes.

The dream that I had today is the ultimate, the worst thing that I can ever imagine, but it felt so real.

God, please guide me. I am lost. God, please.