Fathers day....

[truckchickie]

 

Today,

Hubby Eddie took Brett shopping on fathers day to get all the sales that are going on today after I made sure that they had a nice big breakfast before they left.. so it was just baby Darrin and I to spend a couple hours together, I couldn't help but light some candles around the house and take out Kierstyn's scrap book and talk to Darrin about his sister, which I haven't said, much about her since baby Darrin has been born-

 

- It helped me taking out pictures I don't see everyday and looking at them with baby Darrin I think it makes me relise even though she isen't here physically - doesn't mean she around her daddy or I also her little brothers...

 I made it a point for today to do Darrin's foot and hand prints since he is 4 months old - I did the same for Brett as well when he was the same age...

I forget how it was having one baby - as now there is two and I do miss the one on one time I use to have with Brett so it was nice to have that chance with Darrin today.. :)

 

Eddie and Brett got home around the time we have dinner and walked in the front door with a few matching items.. shirts and some small hotwheels cars which i thought was so cute,

 I couldn't help but smile and think what would Kierstyn be holding in her hands or wearing - if she went to the store with daddy and brother.. :)

 

 Eddie still didn't say Kierstyn's name so I was starting to wonder if he wanted to have her memory be apart of a this special day ?? As he brings her name up every once in a while... I do more often than he does..xoxo

- I didn't want to push anything on him (that is what we agreed on after this last talk we had - so I didn't) .. Much to my suprise he asked me if I wanted to go out to eat for dinner and I said Sure... so we all got in the truck and he as we headed down the street I couldn't help but notice Eddie put in a CD that he put together after Kierstyn died-

- I found myself starting to cry with happy tears as this was a way to keep her memory alive for today without saying her name at all... (to play music that remined him of her!! ) Folish me ,  I keep forgetting that we all have our own way to remember our little angels and one way is not better than the other...But I really do think that actions do speak louder than words !!

 

I can't help but be thankful for what I have- because if Kierstyn was not my little angel I would have my darling little guys I love so much... I miss and love her dearly but I try and think that Kierstyn is in heaven for a reason, unknown to me why but in due time I will know--  Kierstyn has given me more to live for because I don't take the little things for granted like I use too..

 

Hope all the fathers out there had a wonderful and peaceful day today...

Hugs,

Michelle