I am so upset with her!!!!

[kcd78]

Now don't get me wrong I love my mother with all of my heart I mean if it were not for her then I would not be here and neither would my kids but she makes me so mad. see when i was younger my mother got hooked on drugs REAL bad(I don't mean pills either) we didn't see her for years. Let me see I was about 12 and she canceled the layaway my grandmother put up at walmart for me and my sisters. my granny had paid $500 at that point and she was caught and she just left. I didn't see her again until I was 19 she swore that she had changed and to the eye she did look like a new person. Things were great for a while, then yesterday I got a call saying she was in jail for shoplifting! WTF I mean what happen to her. I called my step father and got a ear full seems mom has been back to her old self for over a year now and I mean I am so upset with her she has no idea what my sisters and I went through not having her around for all those years. Not knowing if she was alive or what. And now to see that she has gone back to her old ways I don't think that i can do this again. i am not even sure that I want to talk to her. I have to think about my children and if that means cutting her off then i will! its just so messed up that she would go back to this. but now that i think about i am not sure that she even stopped she might have just found a better way to hide it. The worse part about it is I have no one to talk to no one. Its not something that people like to discuss. DH just says that things will get better but I am like how in the world do you know that? she doesn't even know that. Crack boy i tell you it MUST be great to give up on your family huh?

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[RufNekQueen]

Jun. 25, 2009 at 10:45 AM

I know I don't know you and I've never been in your situation. I just want you to know that no matter what anyone else thinks, you have to do what YOU feel is best for yourself and your children. It might hurt to cut ties with your mother but it might be the best decision you make in your life. I wish you nothing but the best.

[SLGross215]

Jun. 25, 2009 at 10:57 AM

I kind of know how you feel. My mom is and has been an alocoholic. Although she never left us, I wish she had. To be honest I would have had a better life without the booze and abuse. You never know what an addict is capable of until you live with them. I wold have rather been giving to a family member then to have sat home alone starving and raising my brothers. Yeah, it made me a strong person. But why were we made to suffer and hurt to to learn how to be strong? I'm sorry that you have had to deal with that with your mom. I know that it hurts you. And it's sad that there is nothing you can do or say to change who your mom is. She will only change when she wants to and she can only do it for herself. You can PM me anytime you need to talk.

 

[kcd78]

Jun. 25, 2009 at 11:27 AM

thanks guys!

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[knagsmom]

Jun. 25, 2009 at 12:21 PM

i know some what of what ur going through my mom has done drugs for years. she has slotten money from everyone. when i told her i was pregnant with son she got worse and then still worse when i told her i was pregnant again. now its to the point that we only talk on the phone and she never sees my kids. so do what feels right for you