I grieve but so does my husband too

[missclover]

Not long ago I had a misscarriage...it nearly tore our family apart... so my husband put out pain to words far better than I could have ever imagined too. So I want to share it with the rest of the world!

"Littlest One"

by Michael Donahue

written following my wife's miscarriage

Littlest One,

You were hardly ours at all.

You were a wink of firefly light.

You were a sweet dream that blessed our night and faded from us as we woke.

Littlest One,

Does it matter at all that we would have loved you?

Does it mean anything that our hearts spun cords of gold for you, which trail now, useless?

Do our ragged screams, our raw sobs sound out to anything at all?

Littlest One,

We opened our selves to receive you; now we yawn agape, cold and hollow and helpless.

Will we lose the last of you when the ache of loss leaves us?

Is that why we dread to part with our pain?

Littlest One,

My eyes opened at my birth; what puny peek have I gained from them in thirty-six years?

I am complete in none of my parts; how can I be called full-formed, and you not so?

In the vast slow sweep of stars, is my flicker of life so much more notable than yours?

Littlest One,

If our lives have value, yours cannot be valueless.

Even the littlest dot makes its own part of the story.

The great story of life is still being written.

Littlest One,

You were not a lie.

The faint, soft, tiny mark you made on the world persists.

You were brought into the family of what is real, and you will always belong to us.

Littlest One,

We are not so far apart.

Your parents will hold you close to us by holding Life close to us.

We will use our time to make the story a better braver, happier one.

This will be how we take care of you,

Our Littlest One.

[mummylovebaby]

Jun. 26, 2009 at 10:29 PM

My love and prayers to you and your family

[tink0908]

Jun. 26, 2009 at 10:30 PM

i know exactly how you feel. i had a miscarriage not long ago myself. it was soo hard, especially going through it by myself.

[missclover]

Oct. 8, 2009 at 9:16 AM

Thank you for all your support...sorry that I didn't respond but I have been away from this site for a little while. I kind of got very imersed in my new business...I make cold process organic soaps and perfumes..auldschoolorganics.com is my web-site and it gave me a chance to busy myself so that the grief kind off melted away a little..somedays are harder then others but I am doing much better!

(Original Poster)