I miss him

[djw1971]

My son Ryan left for bootcamp Sunday the 28th...I last spoke to him on Monday when he was at the Jacksonville airport waiting for his flight...I miss him so much...I feel like my heart is broken in a million pieces...I know that I am not the only mother in the world to send their son off in the world, but I was not prepared to feel so heartbroken...Someone should have included this in the "parent handbook"....lol....I hope he is not as homesick as I am for him...As hard as it is for me it is worse if I think of it being hard on him...Moms dont want to think of their kids in any kind of pain either physical or emotional...I have 2 sister in laws that have lost their kids to illness and I keep thinking at least I have lost my son to the Air Force not to death...I keep thinking that I am being selfish for being upset at his leaving home...That in time I will get to touch him and talk to him again...I guess the hard part is just not being able to talk to him...For 18 years I have been by his side...He is my only son...I love him more than life itself and everytime the phone rings I hope like hell it is him on the other end...I cant wait for the mail to run by the chance that their is a letter in it from him....Since I cant write him until he writes us first...I heard that on the 4th they will get a chance to call home...I am keeping my fingers crossed!! I LOVE YOU RYAN!! I MISS YOU!! MOM

[Lb128f]

Jul. 1, 2009 at 8:30 PM

I'm sorry you are missing him so much. Great pic! I hope he will call soon!