Who am I?

[Momma_Halo]

I am 27 years old and I am asking the question, "Who am I?".

Now it doesn't have to do with my marriage, my parenting, or anything like that. I mean religiously, who am I?

When I was blatantly Pagan I would stand back in the circles and watch everyone thinking to myself. I just don't fit in. I mean I would do a few spells but I wouldn't do a lot. I never practiced the holidays or feel a connection to the Goddess's or God. I mean I felt a connection to Selene or Luna but I never celebrated her nor did I speak to her a lot.

I do leave food out for the fae so my garden can thrive... but I have seen women who are Catholic do the same thing. It isn't just the pagan community practicing that. Irish Christian families do the same thing. Those fairies like to steal your stuff all the time.

I do believe that God also has a feminine side but I found that many people believe that about God in the Christian religion.

I like to meditate and do a lot of things that the Buddhist do. I meditate when I need to clear my mind and I do vegetarian not only for my health but to clear my chi and my third eye.

So I am a huge mixture of many faiths. And a lot of it has to do with my great grandfather. He was full blooded native American and I was so curious on who he was that I began to research his heritage.

Like my herbalism is linked to Native American practices. I do a lot of herbal healing techniques.

My love of crystals come from my Irish heritage. I use this in my healing techniques as well.

But when people call it Pagan and I must deny it I get confused. Like healing, that is a huge question of mine. Once upon a time herbal healing was seen as a pagan thing... women especially were not allowed to practice it because they were seen as Witches.

Or using Crystals, meditating, and herbalism... I just don't see them as evil. But to be Christian I have to give those things up. And there are quotes everywhere that I cannot practice paganism... I cannot practice "magic".

But as I am reading the Bible... according to the old testiment I can't wear pants because that is considered crossdressing. I can't do this and that... and it can get soooo confusing.

But sometimes I hear people say "Oh it is a culture thing so it is ok as long as you don't do this and that."

Same thing with my psychic beliefs. Oh I didn't know religion could be so complicated... my head hurts.

[SmileyMoo]

Jul. 4, 2009 at 10:30 PM

Where in the Bible does it say you cannot wear pants?

The bible actually says

The woman shall not wear that which pertaineth unto a man, neither shall a man put on a woman's garment: for all that do so are abomination unto the LORD thy God.

Maybe I just MISSED where it said it but I don't recall it saying pants.

 There are definitely girly pants that would look odd for a man to wear...do you not agree?

 

Anyway, I think you can only do what you feel is right for you and what YOUR convictions are. :)

[Momma_Halo]

Jul. 4, 2009 at 11:10 PM

Some religions say that only men can wear pants and women dresses. Because it said women cannot wear what men wear. So pants are then seen as a guy thing apparently and this religion flips out if you wear pants. Up until the 1960's women were suppose to be wearing skirts and dresses because it was seen as sinful for women to wear pants. My grandmother told me she was beaten for wearing pants. She was told that it was seen as crossdressing.

(Original Poster)

[SmileyMoo]

Jul. 5, 2009 at 4:55 PM

I understand, however that is people putting their own interpretations into it. I don't even think pants existed back during the Bible days. They all wore robes. Anyway my point is, YOU have to do what you feel is right and be true to yourself no matter WHAT religion you are in. Which it sounds like you're doing :) 

I wasn't attacking you or disagreeing with you for your thought on the matter...rather I'm annoyed with people that "preach" the Bible while pretending it says one things (like pants) when it does not. I feel sorry that you have run into people like that :(

[Momma_Halo]

Jul. 5, 2009 at 5:04 PM

LOL I didn't think you were attacking me. I am just diving into a religion and trying to understand it more. That is why I am reading the Bible every night and posting questions on my blog. I know could get negative posts but hey I am curious.

(Original Poster)

[SmileyMoo]

Jul. 6, 2009 at 3:41 PM

I just wanted to make it clear that I wasn't disagreeing with you. I commend you for trying to search yourself and finding YOUR path. I wish you well and pray you find peace in the path that is right for you. :)