Pregnancy Blues?

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Pregnancy Blues?
Current mood:  scared

Alright, I have no clue what I am going to do. I'm about 6 months pregnant and I'm actually showing. The more I show the more worried, insecure, emotional, and scared I get. I've never cared for a child before. What if I do something wrong. What if she cries and cries and I can't figure out whats wrong with her, what she needs. I have this little person depending on me day and night and I don't know how to do it.  And I know other people have went through this before. I know I'm not the only one. But what am I suppose to do?? How am I suppose to take care of this little person? What if I'm a bad mother? Or what if I'm not good enough? What if I can't figure out anything that she needs.

I've had some horrible dreams about losing her, not being able to hold her correctly, putting her in a carseat UPSIDE DOWN. Not knowing how to feed her. Uhhg, and labor scares me to death. Everyone I know tells me how PAINFUL it is. Gulp. I'm defientally not having her naturally. Meds please. But I'm just so nervous. Hell I can't even figure out a name, how am I suppose to care for her?

I'm guessing this is just pregnancy blues, and more than likely everything will be okay and I will figure it all out. I'm just scared right now. And I know Gerald will be there to help me and figure shit out as well. I know he doesn't know anything about kids either. It just freaks me out to no end right now. I'm just so nervous all the time. And sometimes I'll get kind of depressed and dwell on it, and other times I'm fine. I mean I'm not always afraid. Sometimes I can get real excited when I see baby clothes, toys, ect. I'm just a wreck. And I'm worried about money as well. Someone....

Help? lol.