Having a voice

[Mommy_Sherwin]

For over two years now I have watched my marriage slowly go down the poop hole. It seemed like the more I tried to save it the more quickly it dissolved, so I stopped trying. I let go to let God. Well, what he eventually ended up showing me is that there is something better out there for me. Why he allowed our union to be if it wasn't going to work is something that I guess only he will know. Nevertheless, it has showed me so many things that I formally dismissed in the name of "love". Never again. One of the many revelations I've had in going through this mess of a situation is that the moment you settle for less than you deserve, you deserve less than you settled for. That was partially true in my situation. I compromised some of the things I wanted in a man because I believed that my husband had potential to display those qualities in the future, however, almost none of those things came to pass. My heart was open and I let him in. It seemed like the best decision I had ever made in my life at the time. Now it feels like the worst. What hurts the most is that I feel like we never really had any support to stay together. We needed real heart to heart, in depth counseling and it just wasn't there. After two years of praying and making mistakes while waiting for him to change he finally grew the balls to tell me that he was having an affair with the slut who served as the candle lighter in our wedding. Talk about betrayal! After he discloses this information to me he proceeds to tell me that he STILL doesn't know what that means for us, so I decided for him. I immediately went and dropped off the divorce papers I had been holding for the past 5 months at the local sheriffs office to have him served. He has proved himself to be less than tackles, demoralized, and lacking God given sense in how to deal with civil situations. My only regret is that he is still the father of my child so the communication with him will have to continue for at least the next 16 years of my life. I wrote this blog to alert any woman on Cafe Mom who is, has been, or will be going through a situation similar to mine that I will not give up my dreams and I will not let this defeat me. DON'T LET IT DEFEAT YOU! The devil is always at work looking for who and what he wants to devour. Prowling to kill, steal, and destroy but he WILL NOT take my joy or the voice that I have to speak out against what has been done to me. I will not stop laughing, or smiling, or telling myself that I am beautiful, because I AM. This weekend, I will give my husband and his whore there 10 minutes of fame because they deserve that much (15 would just be to generous). I invite you all to watch once I post the link on my page. It will be humorous but most of all it will be insightful and full of truth and wisdom. Ladies, it can't be dark forever, nor can it be light forever so just know that whatever you are going through will come to pass, but in the meantime, TRY and find the humor in it and laugh about it. Soon you'll find yourself laughing at them instead of crying about it.

[daisyb]

Jul. 13, 2009 at 9:45 PM

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

     Awesome Post! I am sure you just gave "Hope" to many wonderful mommy's- You are a Strong Lady! Voted Popular-

 

 

[SylviaNCali]

Jul. 14, 2009 at 3:56 AM

It's great that you are moving forward from a bad situation. Other women need to know that it's not ever easy, but it pays off in the end.