Pregnant...

[evedrew7]

Its true im pregnant again... and its another boy. His name will be Ethan James.

I dont know why but for some reason im just not happy about it. Im not looking foward to it, its almost as if i dont care? I think it may have something to do with my son kaleb still being young, he is almost 2 and is at that age where he thinks he is the boss and throwing fits which is a bit stressful and i think that maybe i just dont want the new baby to take his place.

Then again it could be the fact that my docter told me that my bun in the oven has a 1 in 138 chance of having down syndrome. I looked on websites to learn about the disability but i just cant see myself having a child with a disability. If he has it, I feel like its my fault. I dont even know if the baby has it and i feel horrible. I know that there are alot of parents out there with children with down syndrome but i just dont know if im cut out to handle something like that. Im having a hard enough time with kaleb hitting his terrible two's.

Can anyone give me some advice..is it normal for me to feel this way???