Maidn's Raving's

down the rabbit hole and to the left

Instead of just having one of those days it seems to be the whole flipping month! I'm so short on money this month anyway with work not offering any hours to speak of for 3 weeks, then my daughter loses her job so she couldn't even pay her part of the cell phone bill. My other daughter has a birthday this week . And now I just went downstairs because the kids said they couldn't do the dishes because there was no hot water and there is a puddle all around my hot water heater and it is cold! It looks the pressure valve went. .... Okay looks like when the valve blew it put out the water heater cause I was able to get it lit again but damn. Why did the valve blow . The last thing I can do is afford as repair bill right now. The day after tomorrow I have to go talk to my lawyer asking him to work on something else on my case when I haven't got him totally paid yet. I'm so bothered by it I am almost sick about it. Work has picked up I will get at least 40 hours if not more this week but I have to wait for that check to even come in. The whole money thing is getting me down right now and it just builds my resentment for my ex- husband and the system that is allowing him to do this to me and the kids. I am so angry and frustrated with it all I just want to scream. But I know alot of it is just being angry with myself. I just keep asking myself why I didn't push this before . Why didn't I check that the papers were signed . I hate this feeling of helplessness and frustration. I hate feeling weak and yet I am so tired of being so strong , I'm tired of people expecting me to be strong. Of telling me how strong I am. God I just want someone else to take a few problems every once in a while. Now I get to play handy man , do the search on the internet see if I can figure out what the hell is wrong with the stupid thing and try to fix it myself. Hoping the whole time that I don't just make it worse like I did the dryer when I tried to fix it. ARGGGGGGGG, Right now would be a great time to scream "Calgon take me away" .... But there would be ice cold water in that bath so that would just suck too.

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Annet...
Jul. 21, 2009 at 11:56 PM

OMG I feel so bad!  My aunt just went through a really messy divorce... somehow she ended up with all 4 of the kids, no child support, no place to live, and he has been fighting to make her pay him alimony even though she has been on disabilty for quite a while now.  I wish there were something i could say to make you feel better, but all i can say is good luck, keep your head up, and somehow you will get through it all. I really hope the best for you and your family.

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