My Darling Dad and Lung Cancer

[EllieOops5]

 I was relieved last night by my brother Manuel.  Dad was in and out of sleep.  His blood pressure is going up and down  and they won't give him anything till it's up and they put in order for med, dr. calls it in and dad gets it.  By then he's already hallucinating and is very disoriented...can't help wanting him to die now w/his near strokes instead of going through pain and indignity of Cancer.  He should be released today.  He'll be so happy to be out...2 weeks without smoking...for a heavy smoker, that's hell on earth.  He is 84 and never sick, even though he went through that asbestos s#it at the Aluminum Plant...i think mom was the one who died of that, dad said as much, too.  I helped her through her suffering...and now, Dad, too.