Confused!

[queenm77]

 I was feeling down yesterday, I had my little mini-depression. I've been struggling with my faith, not being the person I should be. I say I'm not going to worry about things I have no control over and somtimes I find myself wondering to that corner of my mind that I put my problems in. A very bad habit I have and sometimes I do good with the "not worrying". I pray about it and give it over to him but, I don't know who or what takes me back to "Worry World", I feel like I'm not living up to his expectations. I succumb to my flesh, when I drink. I'm doing things I'm not supposed to. (drinking mostly) I feel as if I'm being punished for not being that person I know I can be. I'm being punished for not following him like I should be. My husband is out of work, I have a job but work has been very slow. I have bills piling up, with no way to pay them. I do know that everyone has the same problems and some have worser problems. So is this a test from GOD or is this a test from the DEVIL? Is GOD testing me to not lose my faith and to be the person he know I can be? or Is the Devil testing me to stop looking to GOD and keep being depressed, to not trust in GOD? 

[queenm77]

Jul. 22, 2009 at 7:24 PM

Just venting

(Original Poster)

[beanielips]

Jul. 22, 2009 at 8:03 PM

Venting is good.  It lets us see things in a different perspective.

Can I just say that I don't think that God actually tests us.  It is just part of living in the world and finding ourselves.  What God DOES do is use those things in a way that we are better people and hopefully closer to Him.

My life sin't always perfect, and I really get down sometimes (right now I am on an up swing), but I know that I always come back to God.

[jilly558]

Jul. 22, 2009 at 8:21 PM

God doesn't love you and bless you based on your works, nor does He punish you "when you are bad."  Christ came to Earth, took on ALL sin, yours and mine forever so that we can have an eternal relationship with God. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. That means read God's Word daily (several times a day if needed) and renew your faith and your peace of mind. Bad times are hard, they don't go away just because we love God, but we have faith that we are not alone in our struggles and we can grow from them. Hope that helps!

[whosfun]

Aug. 21, 2009 at 7:45 PM

You think God does 'nt love you beause you have a glass of wine. I was in that bondage before also and im out of it.God does'nt have a problem with a glass of wine, from what I have read in the bible. He has a problem with us putting the glass of wine before him. seeking the wine instead of him. Being drunk. and not in control. making the wine our answer. a casual drink by yourself, with the girl, or your husband I feel is not a problem. But it is a problem whan you are out of control.

Im new here, I like your personality, and just wanted to say hi.