Truth Is......

[dngoodwin73]

  

When I see my husband face I am grateful that such a great man loves me so unconditionally

My God Daughter calls me Mom and it makes me feel so honored

When my Step Son calls me by my first name - it mildly bothers me

When my Step Son tells others I am his mom, "I have 2 Moms" - It makes me happy that he see me this way

I dislike (prefixes) in families - Step/ N-Law

I never felt the true joy of motherhood but have always embraced it through each of you

After we decided to be parents  I see pregnant women all over the place.... lol

I never knew trying to adopt was going to be this hard

I wonder sometimes if I will ever hold my little one in my arms, midnight crys, and little kisses to say everything will be alright, lay them on my chest to hear my heart beat to sooth them back to sleep

I have great spiritual faith, but human doubt - ( God is not through with me yet)

I admire all for your strength, free spirit and family

I love hard and believe that you shouldn't take friendship for granted- and because of that I have very few friends

I am so silly at times especially when I am sleepy

My Grandmother was Puerto Rican, My Grandfather was African American My other Grandmother was part Indian, so I am 25% Puerto Rican 25% Indian and 50% African American so am I Biracial ? lol- and what do I pick when filling out those applications ( all of the above?) lol I embrace the various cultures and ethnicities in my family.

I never knew my Puerto Rican Grandmother ( my mothers mom, she died when my mother was 16)

I miss my Indian Grandmother - braiding her long salt and pepper hair - when I look back - I see her two long braids - and she only took them down on Sunday- when she would wear her beautiful hats  and we would go to church together.

Sometimes I seek acceptance in others but I am learning to just be me regardless

I am a loner

I just learned to love myself a few years ago, and now I have a better appreciation to love others..

These are my truths.....

Wife of Chris 14yrs & Step Mom of C.J 15

God Mom of Jaz 17 & God Mom Anessa 1yr

Now Hopeful Adoptive Mommy 

[Jerrodmum]

Jul. 24, 2009 at 12:33 PM

You are so deep and you made me cry again.

[dancer]

Jul. 25, 2009 at 7:57 PM

I was touched by your post.

[ms.taylor_made]

Jul. 26, 2009 at 8:36 AM

Thank you for sharing and being so honest ,,, and we all admire you too.  The race isn;t give to the swift but those who endures to the end; you and your family are gonna be abundantly blessed.  I can't wait to hear of your new additions arrival ;0)