My Thoughts

[MyBabies08]

I use to allow people to knock me on my ass, But Now.......Now I stand firm when people try, I don't let them knock me down......I have stood firm when they have tried they hardest to make me fall.....I use to think about what my reason for being is, and I find something new everyday to make me see my reason for being.....I use to wanna make it all end, I didn't care about life, So I cut, Drank,Popped,OD'd,loaded a gun,and tied a rope......I tried time after time to make it end, and Failed each time. I kept asking myself why? Why did it have to be me to go threw the shit I went threw....to have to go threw the beatings, and Rapes, and abuse I went threw? Why did my attempts fail? Why Couldn't I just be dead and gone so No one would have to worry about me, so I wouldn't have to put up with the things I had to go threw everyday. That was Then.....Now?  Now I still ask Myself Why did My Mother allow those things to happen to me.....Though I know I will never get an answer........Now, I still stand firm to people, and I Never Ask My reason of being......If I ever start to think that question, I just Look down at two of the most important little people I have in my life........My Kids...........So If You ever start to think to yourself "why am I here?, What is My reason of being?" Just think of the one thing in your life that makes you the happiest and hold onto it, Never let it go..................

^^^^^^ MY REASONS FOR BEING!!!!!^^^^^^^^

[babymomma0306]

Jul. 26, 2009 at 4:33 AM

I have been there too. Don't the children just change everything? It must be a mom thing ;-) !!! You're children are absolutely beautiful! *HUGS*

[MSugarKane]

Jul. 26, 2009 at 7:14 AM

And those are two very most important reasons in the whole universe!

[Jewelya23]

Jul. 26, 2009 at 8:03 AM

[MyBabies08]

Jul. 26, 2009 at 3:43 PM

Thanks Ladies........

(Original Poster)