I see the hand of God in my life....

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It is almost 2 years now since my sister, Michelle, has died.  I am really fine with her passing.  I was shocked when I found out.  She was 19 years old and sleeping in her car.  Her boyfriend was driving and had fallen asleep at the wheel.  She was sleeping in the passenger side, she was too tired to drive.  So he drove, well he ran a red light and lived, while she died.  The odd thing was that my mom knew something bad was going to happen.  She begged my sister not to go out.  She held her and begged her not to leave the night before.  Mother's intuition, I guess.

She died only two miles from where we live and my husband drives through that intersection on his way to work.  Odd thing really b/c the accident was at 6 in the morning and he didn't go that way that morning b/c it was so backed so he took a different route.  Had he gone that way he would have seen her car. 

My dad tried calling me but I hate to answer my cell when I am talking to people I think  it is so rude so I kept ignoring it- well I finally answered it- wow, I was shocked.  The only thing I could say was :blessed be the name of the Lord. I am so happy that that was the first thing on my mind.  I am not gloating I am just so happy that my relationship with the Lord was so close that He brought me through this and I was there for my parents and my family.

I look back on it now and I realize that every moment I have with anyone can be the last. I did a Bible Study and it challenged me to be a mentor so I took my wayward sister who I thought lost herself in drugs and sex- not bad but well, more than I liked.  So I started talked to her and going on walks with her.  Thank the Lord I took an interest in her. It was my last summer with her. I walked with her and talked to her about her life- even though I did not approve of the things she did. Those were the things I remember.

My mom had a horse named Ben she loved her horse.  Well she was pretty unhealthy and she fell off her horse.  (I can be pretty judgemental.  If you haven't figured that out yet.  God is not done working on me yet!)  She broke her knee and she could not move her leg- she was in a leg cast that went  from her hip to her toes.  She was in the cast from Feb. to July.  She could not do stairs so she was stuck in a chair on the main level.  Well my sister was a college student and very busy she would be in and out .  My mom would spend time with Michelle whenever Michelle was home.  Michelle was in school to be a nurse (like my mom) and would help my mom.   Due to my mom's injury she was able to spend 6 months with her daughter whenever she was home- everyday b/c they were both home at the same time.  

Now, my dad also took 2 weeks off just before she died.  I can go on and on how god blessed our family just before she died. One more.... The Christmas before she died I was obsessed with taking a family a good family picture with all of us.  We took like 7 pictures- I look back on it now and wondered why did I become so obsessed about it?  It must have been God!

It is well with my soul because God is in control!