My point of view about Christianity

[Momma_Halo]

It is two weeks before my baptism. I am truly excited but I have a huge problem. I know I accept Christ as my savior but I have my own opinions on religion. And they are not accepted by a great deal of people. I find that I can't talk to ANYONE about them. Or I am just too scared that I will be met with ridicule and resentment.

For one I believe that God is he and she... that it is like the sun and the moon. That God is man and woman but for some odd reason it can only be either or in most religions. The Christians I grew up with would have stoned me to death if I told them that God was also a Goddess. But I whole heartily believe that. So I pray to God and celebrate him/her as a Goddess as well. I just believe God is a big blob that can be anything or anyone.

Second, I still practice what some ultra fanatic Christians might call Witchcraft. I don't pray to "false" Gods but Christ and God/dess. I still go out in my garden and cut down some herbs, light a candle and pray over it, even leave offerings of food for God on special days. I even practice Herbalism which goes with my next example.

Third, I still practice a great deal of stuff I learned from Feng Shui, Zen, and Buddhism. My house is carefully planned out to better my chi and I still practice a lot of simple techniques meant to revive my Chakra. In the mornings you can find me doing my favorite move "The Sun's breath" while doing Yoga. And a big mug of green tea in my hands. But lately I haven't been doing those things because people tell me I can't be accepted as a Christian if I do them. But these things make me happy and feel whole. Without it I feel icky inside like eating a greasy cheeseburger that didn't set well in my stomach.

Fourth, I am having a really hard time getting that whole "you are going to hell" down. My instructor is Buddhist... he won't tell me he is but I can tell he is. I just don't have it in me to point my finger and trash him for being different. Instead I want to know more about his view points on balancing his chi.

Fifth, I like being humble, I like being sincere, and I am even a turn the other cheek kind of person. But I am still a strong woman who doesn't use dirty tricks to get far in life. And for some they see that as not being a good Christian woman. I am also stubborn.. but that has helped me get far in life. I also tell a person what is on my mind and what I think about their attitude. Other than that I am very quiet and keep to myself. I don't believe a woman needs to be quiet all the time and such to be a good Christian woman.

And sixth, finally I still like Halloween and will always enjoy it. I still believe in psychics and other phenomenons.

But that is what is on my brain right now. It has been bothering me all week. Not in the way that some might offer when they read this journal. Telling me if it bothers me maybe I shouldn't do them. I mean it bothers me that people make up the rules instead of letting God make up his own mind about it. For all we know I am being a perfect example of a Christian. That is why I believe in "Do not judge others".

[meagain_age55]

Jul. 30, 2009 at 6:55 AM

You need to go to somebody and get help but I do not know who in your area casts out devils but you should most definitely find them those who do that in your part of the world and because you are being held captive . I am unable to help you so I am sorry but the problem you are dealing with far surpasses my readiness and do to my inability to direct you to a person or persons who are in preparation for to do the casting out of devil you will require a person in your town to find for you those who do that Christian service out of LOVE FOR THE LORD.

[KristiS11384]

Jul. 30, 2009 at 9:33 AM

Don't listen to the close mind above me. Whatever path it takes for you to become a better person and feel WHOLE is the path that is right for you. Follow your HEART and let your heart guide you. Just as Christ did.

[Momma_Halo]

Jul. 30, 2009 at 10:18 AM

LOL Kristi... I about laughed so hard I almost had a coffee cleanse for my nose. They seem to be coming out in droves. Very entertaining to say the least.

I agree I should just do what my heart tells me to. Now to clean off a spot in my living room to do Yoga.... ummmm I might be able to get it done before noon.

Now only if I can find a good God fearing priest who serves the lord to magically cast out messy house demons I will be good.

(Original Poster)

[KristiS11384]

Jul. 30, 2009 at 10:21 AM

Sorry the messy house demons come with an 18 year contract. You can't cast them out before it expires.

[Momma_Halo]

Jul. 30, 2009 at 10:22 AM

Well Crap... and Johnny Cochran isn't around to fight that in court.

(Original Poster)