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I feel like a horrible mother
- Aug 1, 2009 at 10:37 PM
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My dd is almost 11months old & she fights sleep horribly. She will scream & scream, to the point Im either crying or laughing to keep myself from crying. During these times I wish she was with someone else, or that I could go back in time & somehow change how she has become. She's so clingy to me that Df can literally do NOTHING with her. All she wants is me. I cant even leave her in another room with him while I go pee without her screaming bloody murder. It's aweful & I HATE it. I just wish she would go to her father & not want me, at least not so much. I want another child someday & I cant help but feel I may be closer to that child than her. You see I left dd's father when she was 3mos old for various reasons(we worked through it later on & are together again), & became depressed in that time she spent most of the time at my mom's or her Meme's(my old babysitter). And I feel I became sort of detatched. Dont get me wrong I love my dd very much but I dont feel like Im as close to her as I should be. I feel like Im just a horrible mother. I want that bond that other moms have with their children & I am ashamed that I dont have that..
Tags: frustrated, crying, life, dd, stress
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First off she's going through a phase, babies and toddlers play favorites. It just happens. She's really young yet too, so its not anything you've done or should be doing differently.
As far as not being "close" to her, all I can tell you is this. Mom's don't have favorites, but they do have children that they understand better than others and therefore can relate to better. My mom and I are really close, when she sees something she knows right away whether or not I will love it or not. She loves my sister too, and they are "close" but where as mom and I are like best friends, she and mom are mother and daughter. We've never considered it beinging "favored". Its just my mom and sis are too much alike and I am more like my dad. Give yourself a break, it'll be the opposite way around in another few months, your DD will only want your DF, and then you will be slightly jealous and miss her!