time for a change

[queeniceone]

one thing im not good with is same day, same thing, blah blah blah. i like change, i like new things, i like to experiement. when i had a baby i thought great new things everyday. what i didn't think about was with baby comes necessary routine. routines that yes i am greatful for, i feel my son thrives with his routines, i on the other hand do not. so, i have decided to do both. my son can have his necessary routines while i have my necessary change. i will get a job and no longer be a sahm. i will struggle endlessly with the fact that there will be someone else in my sons life who will get more hugs and kisses than i do, and will get to witness more 1st than me. but i think that my family as a whole will do better if i have my necessary change. i want to be a better version of myself for my son...