educational crossroads

[clw4514]

while in the military, it was my ultimate goal to become a forensic psychologist.  but, i landed in the transportation sector of the civilian world and education wasnt needed to earn over 50k a yr.  not to mention the excrutiating long hours one had to put in at work.  so, college fell by the way side and life went on.  20 yrs later, im back in school and doing pretty darn well!  I thought i wanted to be a teacher.  great schedule for the kids, etc.  it was never about the money.  but there is always that nagging feeling that something wasnt clicking with that course of study.  half way through my degree, i just decided to switch my major to psychology and pursue my initial dream of forensic psych.  i so hope i am doing the right thing.  i'm sure that these folks are a dime a dozen out there now.  then again, maybe this is just another of my avoidance techniques.  seriously, who would want to hire a teacher with ptsd?  i have complex ptsd which means i have more than one stressor.  i know i dont have to reveal this to them but still, i know i have it and it will always play a part in my decisions.  on the other hand, with these classroom shootings and such, who better to have over ur kids than someone who is hypervigilant and combat trained :)  oh, i just dont know what to do!  i guess i could ultimately end up being a professional student....i could be a 60 yr old college student hangin out with my DD while she is a student there, too.  lol!  decisions, decisions!  maybe i should have made this rambling a poll to see what everyone thinks i should stick with.  nahhhhh.  it will end up coming down to whatever classes i can drop and switch at the last minute....classic avoidance!!!