So much on my mind

[TLW514]

 Well, my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions have been all over the place. I have so much going on in my head I just dont know how to sort through the thoughts. Nothing serious, just everyday life.

I am always thinking about money and our bills, I am always thinking about how to get ahead instead of floating, I am always thinking of my kids and thier needs. I am always thinking about that extra special little girl that holds a piece of my heart that noone else will ever have. I am always thinking about the chores that need to be done in the house and the crazy ass job I have. How it never seems be as smile as going to work and doing the job and leaving. It is complete drama. Grown ass men and women acting like 4 yrs old.

My relationship is rocky right now. I dont know if it will make it. That saddens me. I really want this to work.

I gotta go school shopping for my daughter, dont have any money. She needs clothes, shoes, and all the other stuff. My son seems to be going through diapers like they are going out of style. lol

Im just in a venting mood. Things will get better, they have to. I know that at the end of the day that my daughter will get what she needs. My son will have what he needs. I know. I just wish it wasnt a matter of robbing peter to pay paul type of thing. I just would love to be able to go get what is needed without having the stress of spending bill money. It would be so super nice to take my daughter to the waterpark or a museum.

Anyway, thats my rant, my thoughts. Things will get better.

[Darlinree]

Aug. 8, 2009 at 5:20 PM

Things will get better.  I respect how you are having a bad moment but are staying so strong and so positive.  I like that.  Good on you!