My Dreams are now SHATTERED!!

[3kidsanlonely]

Well, my life is HELL, right now. I don't see any positive light at the end of the tunnel. Bruno has told me once again that he doesn't want to be married, the only reason he gives me is that he wants to be alone, single, whatever! Last weekend was 7 yrs of marriage he started treating me like crap about 5 months ago saying that he doesn't love me, or that he never wanted to get married in the first place. So that hit me like a 12 gauge shotgun in the middle of my heart. The kids cried so much they did not want to see us live apart and not be a family anymore. They wanted the family that they know. They don't know yet what is going on I am going to try to keep it from them, b/c he leaves in Oct. for 6 months.That will be my chance to try and start a life for me and my kids.  But I am pretty depressed b/c all I ever wanted in life is to be married and have a family, I thought everything was good until he decides to turn physco on me. I am tired of trying to please him and make him happy, what about me and my feelings, he doesn't care, so why should I care for him. I will carry on with my dreams of becoming a nurse and on day owning my own home with my kids and pets.

 

[ChelseasMama]

Aug. 9, 2009 at 7:37 PM

i am so sorry i am going through the same thing right now.. only thing is im being kicked out without my kids because i dont have a place to sleep other than my car... i dont think i have ever cried this much in my life... he says the same thing .. i want to be single i want to be alone .. i want it to be just me .... its not right or fair that a guy can break our heart and tear us apart .. and they seem to not feel a damn thing ... maybe one day by some miracle they will all magcaly realize what they have been doing to us... but i doubt it ...  and the crappy part is we do everything to please them .. and make then happy and they do nothing for us... we love then so much and i will always love ryan ... and they dont seem to care... im here to talk if u need someone ... well whenever i can get to a computer next ... im sorry hun

[momof319812007]

Aug. 23, 2009 at 1:40 AM

Oh my goodness.  I am so so sorry! you can do it just trust in God and he will pull you through.  I am praying for you.

I am going to school for nursing t!oo