happy birthday brother, you would have been 30...

[kyriesmommy13]

no words can express the pain i feel. there is a whole in my heart that can never be filled. you were my best friend, my brother. we went through so much together; our childhood and growing up, the pain and happiness. you were such a good person with an enormous heart. you were kind to everyone. the world needs more people like you in it. today is your birthday and it is a sad day for me-i wish you were here, you should be here. it has been almost 6 years and not a day goes by that i don't think of you and miss you.

i think i am usually fairly good with words in the written form, but today i am at a loss. if anyone reads this, please take the time to cherish your loved ones. today, be sure to give your loved ones a hug and kiss just because. take the time to make sure they know how much you truly do love and care about them. it is a sad reality that at any moment, any one of our loved ones could be gone. try to remember what is important in your lives. let go of the insignificant things, concentrate on what is most important to you and your families. life is short and not much matters when you're gone, but your family will remember what type of person you were. i feel extremely fortunate that i had such a close relationship with my brother. it is the one thing that continues to give me comfort.

these are the lyrics to one of our favorite songs by tori amos (my brother loved her and saw her 3 times before i saw her once!):

These tears I've cried
I've cried 1,000 oceans
and if it seems
I'm floating in the darkness
Well, I can't believe that I would keep
keep you from flying
And I would cry 1,000 more
If that's what it takes
to sail you home sail you home
Sail you home, sail you home

I'm aware what the rules are
But you know that I will run
You know that I will follow you
Over Silbury Hill through the solar field
You know that I will follow you
And if I find you, will you still remember
Playing at trains
Or does this little blue ball just fade away
Over Silbury Hill through the solar field
You know that I will follow you
I'm aware what the rules are
But you know that I will run
You know that I will follow you

These tears I've cried
I've cried 1,000 oceans
And if it seems I'm floating in the darkness
Well, I can't believe that I would keep
Keep you from flying
So I will cry 1,000 more
If that's what it takes to sail you home
Sail you home, sail you home, sail you home

Thomas O'Donnell-08.10.79-10.06.03-i love and miss you always!

[jus1jess]

Aug. 10, 2009 at 7:06 PM