* A LoT To Take On *

[rybugsmommy2008]

Ok, my mind alone is so clutter of all this bullshit! I'm so sick and tired of everything, like my ex's and his gf he left me for supposedly getting there own place. What bothers me is she is lying all about it to make me mad. His mother told me the other day that josh said they weren't getting a place if they did she would be left there to pay the bills. This girl so desperately bad doesn't want to see me and my ex work things out because then she would feel that EVERYONE was right when they told her that he will eventually go back to Brayden's mom (ME)!!!! It's so pathetic she threatens to kill herself, cuts on herself, then here lately josh has been sleeping on the couch trying to give her the hint that he dont want her there. So instead she sleeps onthe other couch to make sure he doesnt leave or call anyone in the middle of the night! This girl is pshyco. And i'm coming to my wits in because she is telling his mother that it is me keeping brayden from josh. NO the last time I spoke with Josh my exact words were you are more than welcome to come see your son! But i'm no longer bringing him to you because that one isn't my job! Two I'm tired of the broken promises and heartache I receieve everytime i try and do the right thing and bring his son to see him.  I told him  over and over you can come see your son. His words to me was I can't be alone with you or come see brayden because we would be alone together and shayna would be done with me and that is my only ride.  She doesn't want me alone with you because she knows wht happens everytime we are alone together.  Which is true everytime we have been alone together he has cheated on her with me! But what gets me if u ar sick of her shit and everything then fucking et rid of her ass.  I'm not saying I want him back because after I sit and think. I wander as to why I ever let our relationship go as far as it did. But dont get me wrong everyone can change and if i could see physically and emotionally he was going to change or change there may still be hope. But i'm so sick kof this 19 year old immature bullshit trying to piss me off on myspace when really all she is doing is making it worse on herself and Josh!  GOD I HATE STUPID BITCHES!!!!!!