Missing good friends

[littleredpony]

My best friend moved cross the country 2 years ago and I miss her and her family as much today as the day they left. We were very close, more like family than friends. My youngest son is very close in age to her daughter. They potty trained together, went to preschool with each other, claimed each other as their boyfriend or girlfriend.  Thaey do still get to chat on the phone but it's not the same, they miss each other too. If I ever need anything all I had to do was call and she or her husband would come running and the same with me or my husband.  Heck, he was the one to bring her and her son home from his birth. 

Now I am due to give birth most any time. I've already been sent to the hospital once for preterm labor and now I'm contracting again. I have friends here, but not as close, not as...I am not sure of the word but it is more than friend.

I was in a group here that I felt comfortable with, we did an online shower exchange. My partner wanted to wait to exchange, no prob. I had already gotten a gift but held onto it. When she finished her move and was ready she sent me a wonderful gift, so much more than I could have expected.  Now I admit, I should have gotten her gift back out to her  faster than I did. But I waited to long and due to things I can't control I lost my ablity to get myself around. I have cronic, major pain in my plevis limiting my movement. I am not allowed to drive (Dr orders and DH took my keys just to make sure I didn't) so I have to depend on others for rides.  DH can't help much, he leaves for work by 5AM most days and gets home at 5PM at the earliest.  Doesn't leave him much time to run me around. Others have to get me to Dr appointments and grocery stores, I use a wheel chair to get around.

I got her gift into the mail a week ago, the next day school started for my boys but I was not able to he home when they got home to hear about their days because I was in the hospital getting those wonderful shots to stop contractions.  All goes well and I get to go home, the next morning I get online to chat with my group only to see that my partner had told everyone that was not getting her a gift so of course everyone was calling me a bitch and saying all sorts of things about me, hurtful things.

So now not only do I not have my BF I don't even have this group any more.  I understand that her gift still has not made it to her. I found the reciept from the post office so I can post a pic of it and I guess I will and as I did not open the box her gift came in I will be sending it back to her. I don't want it anymore, everytime I see it I will think of all the things these people said about me not even knowing me or what my situation is.

Please think before you bash someone, you may not know the whole story.