My fuzzy jellybean has a heartbeat.

[mamabermudez]

So, I was so anxious going to my first OB apt- I was freaked out, and nervous and excited, and I think even my husband was feeling the same way..

I had 1000 things running through my mind-- What if when they tested my pee, I wasn't pregnant at all? Then the whole office would be like "whose this crazy chick? She needs more than prenatal vitamins, she needs paxil"-- What if when I had the first sono there was nothing there, or worse there was something there but it was only measuring like a few weeks, when I am supposed to be seven and a half? What if I stared getting bigger boobs because I am gaining weight and it's all been my imagination?

After all the 1000 questions the MD could have asked me about mine and my husbands health and well-being, as well as testing me for chlamydia and gonnarhea (sp?) (which my OB insisted was only because they neglected to do it when doing my PAP a few weeks ago and they need to have results on file as part of my prenatal workup. After having two attempts a drawing three vials of blood-- after waiting and waiting, they finally said "come on into the sono room" and when I got up to go in, my knees were weak..

With my husband in tow, I went in-- Of course now I have to pee, which these days doesn't really come as a shock... which I did, my knees knocking..All of the what if's and prayers and realities setting in.. the moment of truth... She inserts the magic baby seeing wand and....

Holy crap! Is that a heartbeat? The kind sono tech kindly replies "yep, wanna hear it?" Do pregnant ladies like ice cream?! "Of course I do".... And there it was, the prettiest little 'thump, whooosh, thump" at 150 beats per minute I have ever heard... And as a flood, or rather a tidal wave of relief washed over me I looked to my husband who was staring at the tiny little jelly bean on the screen with the little flickering heartbeat with amazement and awe I have only seen him close to when looking a big electronic appliances.

That's it.. It's real.. I am understandinfg more and more why this is such a miracle. I will be saying a few more thanks before bed tonight than usual, and I will hold that tiny little fuzzy jelly bean in my thoughts for the next four weeks until I get to see it again.

[MSugarKane]

Aug. 13, 2009 at 8:07 AM

Congratulations!!  A woman's body works a miracle incubating a baby !  It is always amazing!

[BrittBratt]

Aug. 13, 2009 at 9:37 PM

Awwww :)  That is amazing, huh? To see that tiny little human growing inside of you...

[cutecowluvr]

Aug. 15, 2009 at 11:42 PM

i have the same thoughts about all of this i go to my first dr appt on tuesday.  i am excited but nervous because i have hade some extreme cramping.