I hate it here

[babonwy]

I don't want to be in this God forsaken place anymore...I HATE the City...I HATE City people...they are asses.

I don't want my kids raised here...I want to be in a little Podunk town or in the country, I dont want the city life for My children!!! They Deserve WAY better then that...But I cant give it to them, I hate myself for it....I cry because they have to here fire trucks and police sirens everyday....

I hate this, I cant believe that We cant do better...but yet we can barely keep what we do have....I always said that My children would have room to run....whether that mean in a nice quite town, or a Small Farm...But I don't think we will ever have either...

I Cant believe that I was ever trapped here in the first place, and now I have to blame myself everyday for buying this aweful house that we will never get out of....I could have rented a place that would have been my dream, but we thought buying was better and settled for less...

I hate The choices we have made, I just want a do over.