Healing by nightmare

[mtnmama111]

I had a nightmare the other morning after I woke up with hubby at 445 as he got ready for work. I went back to sleep...

...the dream opened with hubby leaving... and a friend from work came in. He is very gentle, quiet, kind man- the big teddy bear kind of guy. [I think it was him in the dream to give me a reason to trust him but for him to be big enough to overpower me.]

He wanted a hug- odd, but... okaay.... As I was still in bed- he laid down and we had a full body bear hug... which was nice (although slightly odd) at first, and then got bad. After a bit, suddenly his clothes disappeared and he slid up my body quickly (vampire-like if that makes sense lol) and basically shoved his hard-on into my mouth.

The next bit is a bit of a blur... but I freaked for a second, then re-grouped and verbally and physically got out of the situation.

I then woke up. I am pretty sure that this was a healing situational dream for me... I felt weird when I woke up- but quickly was able to feel better and figure out why I dreamt of being raped/ sexually overpowered. And in that particular circumstance- with a *friend* as the problem.

My sub-conscious gave me the power to *fix* how I feel about how I dealt with some bad/traumatic experiences in my past. Wonder if the deep massage I had the day before had anything to do with it as well...

I do feel better, lots of stuff going on right now- this was a good thing though...