My Lord and Savior Jesus..how he touched my life

[Keesyy]

Back when I was 11 or 12 I went to church and found out who Jesus was.

 Then I asked him into my heart.  I knew then I would go to heaven and be

with him forever.  As I grew up I got out of church and I got away from my

Lord and Savior.  I didn't think I needed Him in my life anymore.  I could

do everything alone.  So I thought.  Anyway as I grew up first off my first

marriage ended up in divorce.  I never once thought of Jesus during that

time in my life.  Then while I was still married to my first husband (and we

were not together) I met another man and got pregnant with his child.  All

along not thinking what the Lord would think.  So there I was married to

another man and having another mans baby.  Yes me and the babies dad got

married when my divorce went through.  But the point is it's not what God

wanted for me.  It's what I wanted.  Well as I grew older we had  2 more

kids.   We were happy for awhile then I desided Iwanted out.  I have my

reasons and I will not share them here.  But I will assure you I had good

reason to want to leave.
     Anyway I met my new man online his name was David.  We talked a

little and fell in love over time.  I left to be with him and went to Canada. 

That is another thing that I don't think God liked but I am sure he figured

the way to work with me is for me to think it was my idea and not his at the

moment.  I left my kids and family and friends to be with David.  I think

getting away from everything really helped me grow up.   I started thinking

about God again.  And how much he cared enough about me to give me

David.  For the first time in years I accually felt God working with me and

noticed Him in my life after close to 20 yrs. 
     I started thinking about going back to church.  But first I had to set

everything right.  I went back to my family and friends and most of all my

kids.   I got a job, supported myself and took care of myself and my kids.  I

lost my dad in 2004 and questioned weather or not he was saved.   I'm sure

now he was but it worried me not knowing for the longest time.  Then I

found out I had cancer myself.   I started thinking about dying and what

happens next.   Boy I want you to know God made me really start thinking. 

I started praying again and asking God to not let me dye untill i get things

right in my heart with marrying David and setting things right with my kids

and yes even my ex-husband.   To be able to forgive you have to be

forgiven and forgive yourself.  God listened to me when I asked him because

that was 5yrs ago.  Me and David are married now. We were baptized with

my son Erich at our church.  Jennifer my daughter got baptized a week

later.  She married her babies dad and got her life in order.  I am not saying it has been a easy ride because it has not for sure, but it sure has been a better life with my Lord and Savior walking with me.  Oh and just to let you know what happend while i was typing this the first time.  I had this finished and clicked one wrong button and lost the whole story.   That tells me that the devil is for real because he doesn't want me to get the word out about my Savior.  So I rewrote it to show the devil just how powerfull God is.  I guess I showed him!!! lol