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[Smiley001]

This seems to be the only place I can vent lately so here goes. 

If you've read any of my other journal post, you prolly noticed that my boyfriend and I were having problems and that is over now. I guess you could say he's my ex now. Kinda weird cuz we were together for 7 years. I was really upset at first but then i realized that I deserved better. Someone who doesn't yell at me all the time and someone who wants to spend time with me and doesn't expect me to do everything even when i'm sick with pnemounia.

I'm pretty sure that I can take care of my kids seeing as I've been doing it since they were born without a day off. I might look like i've let myself go but not enough that I can't see guys noticing me.  I'm already trying to move on meeting new people and maybe a new relationship in a bit.

The scary part is I'm not sure what I'm looking for. I've changed since my ex and I first started dating 7 years ago seeing as I was only 16. I mean how many 16 year olds know what they want? I guess I thought I did. I had everything planned out except this.

I honestly didn't have much hope that I would find anyone who wanted to even talk to me cuz I have 2 kids now and I'm not as small as I was before I had my kids. I'm getting back to where I was and hopefully by the time christmas pictures come I will be close to myself again. I'm sure once i am back to where I want to be or at least my baby stomach is mostly gone I will feel so much better and confident but until then I'm still nervous in public

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The bad...Venting:

My ex is hanging out with this girl who is the twin of a friend of mine. She won't stop running her mouth about me and it's annoying. I have never done anything to her or said anything started any drama....nothing. I don't know why she is acting this way.  If she thinks im going to stop talking to her sister she's wrong. if she thinks my ex is going to put up with this he won't! Then she was askign my ex if she and he could take my daughter trick or treating and I'm like I don't think so....I don't mind him going but if she is going to act like this then she can't come but there is no way i would miss that. I'm taking my daughter and if she shapes up a little and maybe apologized i will put it behind us. I mean if he really stays with her then we all need to be able to get along i think or she and i will go at it all the time and that's not what I want my kids seeing or hearing about.