One mom's heart wrenching story of vaccines and autism

[jenniferm]

When my daughter was vaccinated, we participated in a science experiment. We allowed her to be injected with multiple soups of ingredients, most containing heavy metals in varied amounts, animal or human cells, viruses and other things that have never been cumulatively tested for safety or synergistic toxicity. Even the CDC acknowledges on page 33 of their Draft Agenda Recommendations dated April 11, 2008,"...simultaneous vaccination is incompletely studied at the time of licensure."

 

Still, we were good little lemmings who questioned nothing and did as we were told. We were "pro-intellectuals" then.

 

And then a funny thing happened. She started getting sick, really, really sick. Ear infection followed by ear infection and then bronchial infections and bladder infections. Over a dozen rounds of antibiotics in the first 2 years of life did nothing to stop it, including an ear tube surgery. There was no explanation for why my baby who was not in day care was so very sick all the time when no one else in the family was.

 

Or why after 5 months of life she stopped developing normally. Why she suddenly wouldn't put weight down on her feet anymore. Or why she couldn't sit up anymore without pillows propping her up. Or why she couldn't crawl and log rolled everywhere and didn't walk until 17 months old, and when she did, had a gait and weak right side like a stroke victim.

 

Or why she started having staring spells and would only sleep in a rocking chair. Or why she could do the Chinese splits as a 10 month old, because that's how she would get down from the propped up sitting position.

 

Or why her hair was like straw and she had eczema and horrific yeast infections. Or why her gums were flame red and she drooled incessantly. Or why she was so chronically constipated it would leak out in the bath tub or pool.

 

Or why at 12 months old she could point and had several words but by 24 months old didn't speak at all, and didn't do so for 6 months after a high pitched screaming fit 18 days after her MMR/DTP/Polio/Chicken-Pox cocktail was given to her while on Augmentin for the 3^rd time that left her speechless and smile-less. Or how she had a seizure on Christmas day a month later while opening her presents.

 

Oh, I could go on, but you get the point. She was a very sick little girl. And this continued for almost 4 years. For 4 years we asked and asked and asked what was going on.

 

Doctor, she's so sick. Should we vaccinate while we're on so many antibiotics? Is that safe? Oh, it is? Okay, we trust you. Doctor, why is she holding her hands over her ears when the radio is on or someone's singing? Oh, you don't know? Okay, we trust you. Doctor, why isn't she talking anymore? Oh, her brother is talking for her? Oh, okay, we trust you. Doctor, why is she having staring spells and seizures? Oh, you don't know again? Okay, we trust you.

 

It wasn't until a year of speech therapy did nothing and a neurologist told me in his "pro-intellectual" manner that "sometimes when parents are disappointed in their children they don't develop normally" and handed me the card of a shrink that I thought in my "anti-intellectual" way, Hmmm...I wonder if maybe the doctors are wrong. Seems to me they don't know what's going on with my daughter, let alone how it happened.

 

It was then I decided to conduct another experiment. You see, when I was in 5th grade, I was taught that to do a science experiment you needed a good hypothesis, good research, a control, solid evidence and an unbiased analysis of data to interpret your outcome.

 

So I started with a hypothesis, three of them actually. One of them said the doctors were right, and nothing was wrong. Clearly the evidence pointed otherwise, so I got rid of that one.

 

The second one said if something was wrong, and she was having developmental delays there could be two possibilities as to why: one, that it was genetic, or two, that it was environmental, genetics only leaving her vulnerable, not causing the problem.

 

To address the first hypothesis, we underwent genetic testing. Nope. Nothing there. Our daughter did not possess any known genes to cause developmental delays. In fact, our profiles were almost identical. I did not have developmental delays, my husband did not either, and neither did anyone on either side of our family for as far as we could find.

 

Interestingly though, we found out that I and my daughter carried a genetic mutation, as does my father, which interferes with the cycle necessary for proper detoxification.

 

So no, the evidence proved it wasn't genetic. This left me with only one remaining hypothesis: it was environmental. That meant I had to ask another question, which is also what I was taught you do in science. In fact, I was taught that's what science is: a method for asking questions and evaluating the answers based on evidence.

 

Well, what could it be, I wondered? What could do something like this to a child? What in her environment could take a perfectly healthy baby that was developing normally and thriving and first destroy her immune system and then cause her to stop developing normally, including loosing her speech? (Mind you, my daughter did not have an Autism diagnosis at this point in my science. I had no idea about the controversy surrounding vaccines or their ingredients. What I did know is that she had a speech delay and I had teamed up with other moms also battling speech delay to figure out why that was. Those moms mentioned mercury.)

 

After lots and lots of "pro-intellectual" research, I found out that there was a nasty neurotoxin that contains mercury that causes all of the symptoms of what was wrong with my daughter, and that this particular neurotoxin was injected into her on her first day of life and throughout the next 18 months of her life. I learned it had never been tested for safety in babies and that it was actually the subject of a huge controversy and forthcoming book. This was 2005.

 

Still not convinced, I studied this neurotoxin and learned everything I possibly could about it from other "pro-intellectuals", namely chemists, college professors, and chemical engineers. And funny thing, all of them were baffled; simply baffled that mercury would be in a childhood vaccine. They accused me numerous times of being mistaken. These "pro-intellectual" scientists simply couldn't imagine something as deadly as mercury being purposefully injected into a baby.

 

From them, I learned precisely the way mercury toxicity manifests and that it can do so in dozens of different ways making it an epidemiological nightmare to pick up. I learned that it affects speech and intellect, but first, it often goes for the immune and detoxification systems. See, those are the systems that get called into action upon the body's detection of the poison. Mercury is partly so awful because of the sophisticated way in which it dismantles those first lines of defense.

 

I learned that unless exposure was recent, chronic poisoning was very difficult to confirm because it wasn't in the blood anymore. I learned that's another reason why mercury toxicity is so hard to detect: It can take years to finally get the best of you, not usually manifesting for weeks to months after exposure.

 

I learned you needed hair and porphyrin tests as well as a doctor who specializes in heavy metal toxicity to be able to diagnose you, and that yes, there was treatment. In fact, the treatment was already mentioned on the Material Safety Data Sheets for this neurotoxin. It said, and so did the doctors who treated it, that you need to treat heavy metal poisoning with chelation and the type of chelation depended on whether or not you had acute or chronic poisoning because they are treated differently.

 

So we continued this experiment and decided to collect data so we could look at the evidence we were compiling. Yes, she had been injected with mercury. Yes, she had developed the symptoms of mercury toxicity precisely when it said she would. Yes, she did have a genetic mutation for poor detoxification, meaning that amounts that likely wouldn't hurt others could hurt her. (The Material Safety Data Sheets also said "hypersensitive" people shouldn't get it, but when we were a part of that first experiment, we didn't know that.)

 

All we had to do now was test her hair and urine under the guidance of an allopathic, western-evidence-based-medicine-trained MD, and yes, they both came back positive. She had mercury toxicity. But even then, there was still one more thing we had to do to be sure. We had to treat it. And if she got better, there would be no doubt: our daughter had been poisoned.

 

Well, guess what? She got better. We didn't imagine it. It wasn't something she outgrew. It was something we overcame with a prescribed medical treatment based on science. Within 1 year, she regained her speech, stopped getting so sick all the time, and caught up developmentally with other children her age. Unfortunately it appears, however, that being poisoned for 4 years without treatment did lower her IQ somewhat. We continue to work on that.

 

There is no other scientific conclusion to come to other than that my daughter was poisoned by mercury. Does that mean the only mercury responsible for the poisoning was from her vaccines? We'll never know. I live 5 miles from a coal burning plant, had 13 amalgams while I was pregnant with her, and ate tuna occasionally while breast feeding. I'm sure it was a combination of all of it, coupled with a genetic susceptibility, but to deny that the fact it was injected into her at her most vulnerable stage of development had anything to do with it? Well, that's about as "anti-intellectual" as it gets.

 

Now, if any of this makes me "anti-intellectual", I'm okay with that. My daughter has her life back. She has her voice back. She has her health back. We have her back.

 

Had I listened to the "pro-intellectuals" who told me that because the only CDC study done at the time on hundreds of thousands of kids found maybe mercury was causing problems and maybe it wasn't (it came to a neutral outcome, not a negative one), she would still be suffering.

 

Had I cared that when this neurotoxin was used less in <?xml:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />Denmark rates of Autism skyrocketed, she would still be suffering. (Sorry but what a stupid study that is. Less neurotoxin, More Autism. Hilarious. If that's intellectual, thank God I'm not.)

 

Had I believed that the very people who would be held accountable for this disaster had the right to determine if they were guilty, or had I believed the results of their internal investigation, she would still be suffering. Who knows if I would have ever heard her speak in a full sentence or ask a "why" question, which didn't happen as it was until age 5 anyway.

 

I hope she continues to ask those "why" questions as she grows up. I hope someday she can ask those in charge of children's health, why they insisted on calling her mother and father names like "conspiracy theorist", "anti-intellectual", "anti-vaccine" or other condescending things simply because they questioned the role of vaccines in her deteriorating health condition.

 

I hope she asks why they refused to do a study of the vaccinated versus never vaccinated when there are tens of thousands of never vaccinated children in her very home town that are more than willing to volunteer for the study, a study that in scientific jargon is called having a control group (something we don't have in any of the science on 1 ingredient of dozens and 1 injection of 36 they actually have "studied").

 

I hope she asks why the American public didn't demand that this important study and others that actually look at the health outcomes of children who got mercury versus those who didn't (another study that's never been done...we've only compared kids who got some to those who got more) or that look at the effect of simultaneous vaccination on vulnerable populations weren't done by those not in the field of medicine or influenced by the pharmaceutical industry to eliminate their conflict. Why do those who are being accused of a horrific, albeit unintentional crime get to investigate themselves if they are guilty? Who's the intellectual giant who came up with that one?

 

Mostly, I hope she'll demand to know why she was considered acceptable collateral damage and why the only people who ever didn't consider her that were ridiculed for having asked completely logical questions and finding the evidence to support their answers in order to get her well.

 

It's quite simple really. In the name of lowering the rate of infectious disease have we accidentally swapped it for the increase of chronic disease? And if we have, at what point does one outweigh the other? Who gets to decide that and how? And just because one caused the other, does that mean you don't treat it?

 

Those seem like pretty intellectual questions if I do say so myself. But hey, what do I know? I'm just a mom who has actually read all of the studies and analyzed them critically and can't find one of them that exonerates vaccines or any of their ingredients from causing Autism, perhaps one of only a few people on the planet who has really done that.

 

I'm just a mom who lived this nightmare and sought out the doctors, the science and the medicine to get my baby better, spending hours upon hours researching and learning everything I could to do so, knowing full well that the very idea of me questioning the "pro-intellectuals" who couldn't offer us anything would only cast me in to the "anti-intellectual" category for doing so.

 

But if being "anti-intellectual" means I have a healthy, recovered child, well, you can call me anything you want.

 

 

[mcqueenmom]

Aug. 27, 2009 at 2:55 AM

When my daughter was vaccinated, we participated in a science experiment. We allowed her to be injected with multiple soups of ingredients, most containing heavy metals in varied amounts, animal or human cells, viruses and other things that have never been cumulatively tested for safety or synergistic toxicity. Even the CDC acknowledges on page 33 of their Draft Agenda Recommendations dated April 11, 2008,"...simultaneous vaccination is incompletely studied at the time of licensure."

 WTF?????