She trusted me till the end...my little dog Sophie

[OldnWiseMom]

I don't even have a picture of her to keep.

I just got back from the vet, having her put to sleep.  She had another horrible spell this afternoon.  She was in such agony--unbearable.  So, I called the vet again, and said NO MORE!  She trusts me, and she needed me to take care of her and not let her suffer any  more.

I could barely do it, especially when they said I couldn't hold her while they were putting her to sleep.  Handing her over was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life.  But, I had to do what's best for her, and not let her suffer any more.  Poor little thing! 

But, I brought her little yellow baby quilt, and they wrapped her up in it, and, if she could not have my arms around her, she at least had a piece of home and my scent, wrapped around her.  I waited there till it was all over, and then they brought me back her blanket.  She said Sophie did not suffer, and was cheerful and friendly till the end.  She was so excited being around so many different, exciting smells.

A part of my mind wants to scream, Sophie, and it hurts too much to bear, but I will remember  her agony and remind myself I did what I had to do, because she trusted me to take care of her.

If doggies go to Heaven, I pray to God that He has put her in my Granny Warren's arms, because she has such a tender place in her heart for doggies.

I have seen a lot of sadness and anguish in my lifetime, so I know the routine, but I must do this right, this time, and come out on the other side stronger and better.  I know God loves me and is helping me through it.

I will always have my sweet little Sophie in my heart.  And also, this morning, I cut a bit of her hair and showed her what I was doing, and put it in a bag, labled it Sophie's hair, and put it under my pillow.

And i have her blanket...

When I feel better, I will write a journal entry about how to tell if a dog has what Sophie had, and maybe help some other little doggies who are suffering, and their mommies don't know why or what to do.

Thanks for reading this far.  It helps me to know someone cares about what we went through.

God bless you, and if you've got a little (or big) fur baby, give it a hug from Sophie and me.  :)

[christydlewis]

Aug. 27, 2009 at 7:10 PM

AWW I am sooo sorry. I was hopeing she could have the surgery and get better. If you need anything you know how to get a hold of me.

[Mylovngheart]

Aug. 27, 2009 at 8:12 PM

I'm so sorry Wanda, I know there's no words to make you feel better....but know I'm a friend that's praying you thru this...you're such a good Mom, I'm so proud of you.

You can count on me giving my Maggie an extra couple hugs tonight, one from you and one from Sophie.

Take care of yourself, and remember you've got a friend in Ky who loves you.

[apeclark2008]

Aug. 27, 2009 at 9:52 PM

I Love you and I will call you tomorrow.... Im so sorry sweetheart... i will try and come see u soon....

Your Buddy April....

[sandy562]

Aug. 30, 2009 at 3:02 AM

I am so sorry - take care -

[wandaful]

Sep. 1, 2009 at 4:18 PM

http://www.geocities.com/rondaros/RainbowBridge.html

Check out rainbow bridge here and go to the bottom of the page where the picture of my Cookie is too.  I'm so sorry for your loss and do understand your pain.  I'm praying for you....Sophie is already in a better place. 

wanda

[lalisweet1]

Sep. 3, 2009 at 2:16 PM

Of course dog goes to Heaven!  I'm sorry for your loss...

I, too, went thru so many pet deaths in my lifetime.

Be blessed that you had Sophie to cherish!  Even for short time.  She already knew you loved her very much!

~♥~

[csjoy1]

Sep. 3, 2009 at 4:16 PM

MY DEAR FRIEND:  I AM SO VERY SORRY, I JUST READ YOUR WRITING ABOUT SOPHIE.   I CAN SYMPATHIZE BECAUSE I HAD A SAM, SAM WAS OUR FAMILY CAT, THAT WE RESCUED AFTER SOMEONE JUST THREW HER AWAY.   SHE REMAINED WITH US FOR 15 YEARS SHE WAS THE JOY OF OUR LIFE.   SO MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU AND THE FAMILY DURING THIS TIME.   TAKE CARE MY DEAR FRIEND..I SEND YOU HUGS.  CSJOY1

[nanu43]

Sep. 3, 2009 at 9:28 PM

May God bless your heart. I know your heart is broken. I know your pain, because I've been through it. It does get better, but you never forget them. I do wish you had a picture. I'll have you in my prayers. My 2 little fur babies & I are sending you a hug and I'll hug them for you. Love you.

[lovinglife58]

Sep. 8, 2009 at 8:03 AM

I am so sorry.  I have gone through many furbaby deaths and I know how you feel.  It hurts.  I have four now and 2 are getting older.  I don't even want to think about it.  My heart goes out to you. 

[bethany49]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 2:13 AM

I am so sorry for your loss :( Sorry I am posting so late on this journal entry but your popular journal entry now caused me to go back & read your prev. entries. I cried for your lil Sophie. I pray that God gives you the strength to get through each & every day!