Where Have I Been? Part Two: Diagnoses

[butterflydust]

Where Have I Been?
Part Two: Diagnoses




Introduction


At first, I planned to only write one part of this story - the shiny, sparkly, less painful version that, while being the truth, is not the complete story. It is a story if hope and accomplishment, and I am proud that I can write it in the midst of all that life has thrown at me. But it simply isn't complete without telling you about the Darkness that I deal with constantly.

I have to admit, I was very concerned about writing this all out. I have, unfortunately, learned how sadness, darkness, pain, and depression cause people to shy away and back out of a conversation. It appalls me, to be honest, that this happens when this part of my story begins to emerge. I have learned that some people are only willing to be a friend when everything in your life is happy and perfect. They tend to be too busy to help when you fall apart... literally.

So I thought, "Why even write this? The people who know you most know what is happening right now..."

Even that is not completely true. Some of my closest friends and family have no idea what I really deal with. It would be much safer to leave it at that than to risk the judgment and comments that might come from exposing my battles, my darkness, to the world. But for some reason, I feel a need to get it out there. Maybe this is therapy for me. Maybe it is a desire to raise awareness. Maybe it is a selfish bid to have more understanding from the ones that I love.

Maybe this is the wrong idea, but I am prepared now to finish my story.

(Thank you, Steven, for loving me and supporting me unconditionally. I will always love you... And more.)

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Continue Reading this at my Blog: A Waste of Space

Thank you for your time and interest.

~Stacey~