Feeling guilty

[hybridgirl07]

My mom came for a visit and just left a few days ago, with my hubby gone overseas for work it really made me happy that she was here to visit with both myself and Leah.  I was so happy that I asked her if she wanted to stay longer and she said yes, so I extended her ticket.  She then made a comment stating the Leah could go back with her to Boston and it would be fun for her because she would have her cousins to play with versus here there aren't any other kids or adults....just me.  I know my mom would love to have her to help with her own personal loneliness but I couldn't do it.  I would miss my munchkin so much and not to mention I'm freaking lonely too with hubby always being gone and I really don't have a support system in place since my family lives in Boston.  I needed to register for this semester but I didn't, I was just so unmotivated and depressed I figured why bother because last semester was such a disaster I still haven't checked my grades, lol. 

I guess I'm feeling guilty because most recently Leah has been acting crazy and I've been getting frustrated and wondering should I have let her go with my mom?  Hubby said I should've because it would've been a good break but I would've worried about her the whole time.  I have to go to Boston anyway on the Sept. 8th so that would've worked out great.  I'm a moron, I should've just sent her along with my mom.  I'm feeling like I could just ball up and cry right now because I'm so freaking tired, alone and frustrated.  Ok, I'm done venting :o)

[s.t.e.p.h]

Aug. 30, 2009 at 1:18 PM

That is a huge decision to make..I think I would've done the same thing. I couldn't be away from any of my kids for an extended period of time. If you ever need to talk, you know I'm here for you!

[jaderoatch]

Aug. 30, 2009 at 2:46 PM

ya i would have done the same thing i would worry about my little man all the time my family is in wisconsin so i know what your going through except my family dont really come down here that much so i have to go up there but you know you can always hang with me at anytime i have nothing going on in my life pretty much lol