LIFE D:

[MaturingMommy]

November 21, 2007..

       This day started the very beginning of my life.

i try to think back and remember when my life changed. some would say it was when i got serious with my ex and some would say it was when i got pregnant but id say it was this day. november 21st 2 years ago. i honestly cant believe its been that long since i met him. i didnt know that when i met him i would be here now. but as everything happens for a reason i dont regret anything in my life no matter how bad or how good it was. im having a hard time in my recolection to back the for i am busy staring at Kaevyan. Gah, it is unbelievable, my little angel. He is the most precious gorgeous handsome beautiful little person EVER!

He is starting to look somewhat like me :) he has dimples, and sortof my ears but everything else really isnt mine. As much as i dont want to, i should (though grudgingly) thank my ex. my ex wasnt hot. i thought he was cute and i liked the hot headed stubborness. it shows in my son so i thank him for that. lol. course i am very glad that my son is also very sweet and not AS cocky as cory is. My son may be only half of me in genetics, but he is my whole entire life no matter what.

As to the subject that some of you are asking about my new guy... He is Perfect. He is hard-working, slightly quiet, outgoing, not to mention extremely sexy. :) im happy Kaevyan and i have him. Malcolm knows how to make me smile and he has yet to upset me about anything. he doesnt give me heat when i see him and we go out and take Xa'Kaevyan. Im truly happy Kaevyan has him to look forward to everyday :) As for me. Im fine.
 
i kinda dont know how much and why god seems to be pushing me or maybe its someone else trying to see how far i can go before i break. Surgery, Parenting, Loving, Friends, Family, Life...i hate that ive had to go through all this so young but i still tell myself what doesnt kill you makes you stronger.. and you really never realize how strong you are until strong is all you have left.

ive been to hell and back and im hoping to keep my life the way it is now. Perfect. through all the drama, the hurt, the good and bad times, the everything. its life and i want it to stay in this moment forever. Staring at my little baby boy and watching him sleep off of me for the first time since i got home from the hospital. Knowing that no matter what... al long as i have him...im ok. Life is ok.