Mommy Love <3

[MaturingMommy]

 

i dont know what it is... about being a mom. but its a feeling unlike any other. knowing that, that little boy asleep on the other side of the bed is mine. that all in all i am solely responsible for that tiny life in such a small body. so fragile and beautiful. it has yet to really hit me im a mommy. i was a mommy this year on mothers day. yet i didnt comprehend that much when my friends said happy mothers day. its still kinda weird to say. when i talk to my son i tell him mommy loves him and mommy is always here. and he smiles like he understands, heck maybe he does at this point... then i zone out and think about me as a mommy wondering. mothering is really important. am i doing a good job so far? will he love me like no other? Will i always be his best friend? what will he want to know about his father? Should i tell him? even the bad stuff? will my baby boy show me i made the right chioce? :~) i thank god everyday for my son. and im very excited for what life will bring and what my son will teach me, day by day, week by week, month by month, and year by year. i dont know when i will get married or who it will be to, i dont know if ill die of cancer or have my heart broken again i can only pray it doesnt. i dont know what the future will hold for me... all i know now is that its all about my baby boy.