In home we trust

[Bearsjen]

 There are so many things I want to do, and just dont have the moeny to do them. And its not 100 dollar projects or shopping sprees and trips...I just want to know where we are going to rent next, after oct. When we first moved here, I decorated the place so cute and we were so happy. I pride myself on being clever with what I already have to mix it up versus buying more...but...We thought we were moving in april and we packed so much stuff. All the wall art and photos, everything nick knackie, its all packed. lol thats why i want to redo it all prolly-a blank canvas is very tempting to me

I miss havign a house, somthing that is mine. I cant believe I invested so many yrs of my life in the house on jefferson street. and  for what? so mike could say"its mine" and I get nothing? He cant even get the equity together.

I can only pray that one dy I can forgive him for taking so much from me. I can only pray that one day I dont wish to rip his throat out.

I miss my house, my flowers, my dogs...I miss my home.

I can only one day I find a place that feels like home again, and I can exhale, and believe in trust again.

[RosePetalTears]

Aug. 31, 2009 at 11:21 AM

you'll get a home eventually. you deserve one. 

 

Oh, and you know that saying home is where the heart is? Thats bull.  Living some place and feeling at home are 2 completely different things!

[sunshine31]

Aug. 31, 2009 at 11:14 PM

I know that things will happen for  you guys!! I can just feel it!!

[OldnWiseMom]

Sep. 2, 2009 at 2:58 AM

I'm so sorry, Sweetie.

I know how you feel.  I think the secret is to build your home from the inside out--inside your heart, where your love for your children lives--and let it grow from there, one cup towel, one plate at a time.  You'll be fine.  You know, our forever homes are in Heaven.  We're just here for a short time anyway...

[islandwalker]

Sep. 2, 2009 at 10:32 AM

I always say home is where the ones you love are...it's not just a place, but the people. Since you are good at using what you have to make your place feel like a home, do it where ever you are. Haven't you heard that the Mom is the heart of the home? YOU are the heart, and making those who enter your place feel comfortable and welcome is ALL that matters, small apt. or huge house. Just think, in a few years this will be the 'past' and the memory will dim. My dd always says "just flow with the go" (backwards from the usual)  and I'm trying to do this too. (we may have to move soon, too....)

[stephland3]

Sep. 3, 2009 at 9:42 PM

Saying a prayer for you.....

[nat_mom_of2]

Sep. 11, 2009 at 10:46 PM

Don't you worry you will soon be rewarded you will see and for that evil guy that took so much from you whenever you want to rip him apart call me and we'll get our girl power all over his ass! LOL :0) don't worry honey sometimes things take a while to take shape but it happensa sooner or later! say hi to Liam for me! XoXo!

[stargazer5585]

Sep. 14, 2009 at 7:01 AM

I know I'm like two weeks late, but . . .

Hang in there!  I can't fathom how much it must hurt to have your beautiful home taken away from you, but unkind deeds are like an infection of the soul, they sicken you and just make you more miserable.  He'll get what's coming to him some day, don't let his poison creep into your heart too.

And I certainly know what it's like to feel like a nomad, never having a real home.  I'm so tired of beige walls and appliances that come with the place, of packing and unpacking.  I've moved 7 times in 6 years.  Theoretically the next place should be for 3-4 years, which  is better, but I cannot wait till the day when we can buy a home, unpack everything for the very last time, plant some flowers and trees we can watch grow over the years, and sit on the porch until we grow old and die.  It may sound horrible, but I'm tired of striking my tent.  I sympathize.