Its Killing me more each day!!

[NevansMommy]

WEll I went to the Drs and they have informed my husband and I that WE arent pregnant. I have something wrong with my hormones and what not. I go back to the Drs sept 17 th be put on fertility drugs which are kind of pointless because my hubby is inlisting into the army. I want to be a mommy so bad and I feel like im not a real women any more. My body thinks its preg. when its not and dont know when it is.  Ive been so depressed that Ive even thouht about not such good things. All I wont is to have a happy marriage and to be a mother again. Maybe one day God will see taht ive been punished enough and finally see my husband and I would be great parents! 

Ladies could you pls pray for my husband and I

[angelmama081007]

Sep. 3, 2009 at 5:16 PM

Aw honey, don't think you are being punished....  :(  I am so sorry....

I don't know what you believe in, but so many people will tell you that this was "meant to be", there is a "reason for everything"....  I read a book called, "Why Bad Things Happen To Good People", by an author named Kutchner, or something like that....  It basically takes that reasoning away, and shows a whole new way to think of things....  Such as God is crying with you when things like this happen, not that he made it happen, but that it happened because the world is not perfect, that our bodies fail us,  that things happen....  But he is holding us, crying with us, and there with us every step of the way....  I like that feeling better, rather then the feeling that God is "picking" on us, throwing things at us, seeing how low he can get us....

I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers....

[TLozier]

Sep. 4, 2009 at 5:04 PM

sweetie, i'm so incredibly sorry. i haven't heard from you in awhile and didn't want to ask what happened. i'm here for you if you want to talk. you both are definitely in my prayers.

[akhartis]

Sep. 14, 2009 at 10:09 AM

I am so sorry! You know I wanted you to have your miracle so bad!  I will pray for you. I remember feeling the way you are after my baby died.  It took me years to get pregnant and then I finally did and it ended in tragedy. I started fertility treatments and it took another year, but we did end up getting pregnant after surgery and then with the help of Clomid and then miraculously I had two more babies after Jake was born without drugs. So miracles happen. I am sure you will get your miracle.  You are not being punished, your body is just not cooperating. At least you know what is wrong and can start meds to help your hormones get back on track.  Hopefully you will have enough time to get on track before your hubby leaves. I know that is hard on you too, I don't know what I would do if Keith had to be away from us. Is this a decision you both made together or something he did on his own without considering you?  I am very happy there are people who are willing to enlist and protect our country every day, but I think when you are married it has to be something both people want. He knows how badly you want a baby and he should know that is not going to happen if he is not around. So I am sorry you are  having to deal with that along with everything else you have on your plate right now.  Please don't give up hope. Your day will come again.  Keep me updated on how the treatments are going.  Stay strong, you will get through this!

[ealshaf]

Sep. 14, 2009 at 6:25 PM

i keep you in my pray all the time