2nd time

[Aaronmom79]

I have not written anything in a while but i figuresd this is the best place to express myself and get some real feedback. Well last week it was confirmed that I was 6 weeks pregnant again and this really took me by surprise because I was not planning on having another child, on the other hand I knew once my period never came on. Well I know no one is never in the position to have a baby you can never prepare financially for this you just do it as naturally as it comes and take it one day at a time. Well the funny part of it is I practiced the safe sex thing with "him" and after this encounter I guess he wanted more than just the typical relationship, feel like I was raped but gave the consent, "he" never told me that the condom broke and now here I am carrying a child that I know that I will love but deep inside am not ready to take on that responsiblity but as much I thought about having an abortotion deep in my heart I know that I can not have one, yes I am concerned about the talk from my family and the struggle that I amhave yet to endure with another child but I cannot carry that guilt in my heart. Am I really concerned about "him" no/yes, he talk a good game claiming that I can't abort this child and that we are going to make it work but there is so many things between me and him that have not been dealt with and now here comes this baby. I am scared in more ways than one...where do I start telling family members and making a life for me my son and this unborn child in this unstable crazy world? I wanna be happy but right now I am not  :(

[ISAIAHMOM632007]

Sep. 11, 2009 at 12:02 PM

There is a light at the end of the tunnel. This baby is such a blessing and you can do this . as a single mom I know the struggle, but we all know that our kids are worth it. if you need help call Birthright they have great resources 1-800-550-4900 God Bless and congrats

[aronpookie]

Sep. 30, 2009 at 7:54 PM

I know how you feel. Like I said before, I am pregnant with my second child by a different man and my first thought was "heck no" I can't have another kid and what if this relationship never works out? But relationships are a gamble and you know what things happen for a reason. You know things work good for those that love the Lord. I wish you the best of luck in making your decision. God Bless.