day 2 -he's officially gone

[iluvmybabe]

 he came back this morning to get his stuff. tried to make me feel guilty and give in. he wanted for me to say stay and that i've changed my mind. he's going to wisconsin (wtf?!); don't know whats there for him but i knew he wouldnt stay here in houston. he's never gonna see us again. thats what he's done with all the other women he has kids with, why should we be any different? i feel embarrased, dissapointed and kind of like an idiot for thinking he would treat us different. i've been wanting to leave him for a long time. i've just been too scared. i'm still scared. he supported us and now i have no money. i dont know whats gonna happen next. i'm ready but i'm not ready. i'm ready to leave this behind me, but i'm not ready for the pain and sadness and all that comes with a breakup. i'm just glad we only have 1 kid together and that we never got married. that would have made things a whole lot worse.