Will the madness ever end?!

[sweetiowamommy]

More updating. So my friend who JUST found out she is pregnant is doing nothing but bitching about it. She KNOWS I am upset about it but insists on calling me everyday to bitch about everything about it. On top of that I was just disappointed with yet another negative blood test. Im lossing it. I started strong and its just draining away. Our sex life is just running its course. I feel bad for my husband because everytime I get another negative the less sex I want. I had some weird shit happen in the past couple days. I started lactating and went to the doc who didnt find anything but insisted I get checked for CANCER. So I schedualed a MAMAGRAM and they disided to do an ultrasound instead. SOmething about the tissue being diffrent because of my age or something. And found NOTHING. Just what I told them they would. My doctor just put me on Prometrium to have a period because she refered me to an Ob-Gyn to help me with this whole infertility CRAP but the Ob said she will not see me untell I have a period. so ones again Im on hold. I am now up to FIVE medications. INSAIN!! And its only getting worse. Oh well I keep telling myself it can only get better from here. Just have to get my additude back up where my brain seems to think it is.