October is also Pregnancy & Infant loss Month (Remembering my 2)

[maisah]

October is Pregnancy & Infant loss Month

I loss two children, there is not a day that goes by that I do not think about them. My son Ali was only 16 weeks gestation, weighing only 11 1/2 oz fitting in the palm of my hand that was a struggle for I did not want to let him go.... and my son Neim was 5 mo old, healthy chunky lil baby boy passed away from SIDS. Allah is merciful, for I know insh'Allah on the day of Judgement I will see them again...insh'Allah...(God willing)

Say It Aint So

The time came when you had to go.
We cried , "Say it aint so".
So small you had'n the chance to grow.
The angle came and swept you away.
Leaving our days dark and gray.
We had'n the chance to say, "Good Bye".
So maney tears came from our eyes

You came back to me; not to stay,but only to say,
"Please don't cry, whipe your tears, have no fear.
I am here in heaven praying and waiting you. Sorry my stay with you was short, but that was how it was written.
It wasn't for you to be smitten or slighted. But delighted for the time we did share. Plesae do not be in dispare, for you showed me all your care.
So do dare to smile again. Show me that motherly grin".

Say,"It aint so ", I want you to know,"I love you so.Don't think any other way. Just know that I would have loved to stay. But he clled for me,this is where he wanted me to be".

"So don't worry. He too will call for you some day.And as promissed I will be here waiting. And when asked I will say, "you are my Umm, I came from her womb".
Then we shall be together; Everything will be better".

Don't say, "It aint so".
"For I have to go back to my new home, where I shall roam free and wait thee.


© Jewnita Payne

Author's Comments

In memory of my son Naim who died of S.I.D.S. 3/23/1993 - 8/14/1993 Love Mommy

 

Lost Luv

Twelve years ago I lost a luv
It happend so suddenly
In the blink of an eye
" My God ", I cried
You were my pride and joy
Mommies first little baby boy
Only ten inches and eleven and a half ounces
I wish I could have given you lil baby bounces on my knee
I want you to know
I enjoyed the time we shared
Emotionaly and mentaly speeking to you
I know you know how much I loved and wanted you
But
God had a better plan
He choose to keep you in his hands

© Jewnita Payne

Author's Comments

In Memory Of My First Son.......Ali Jan. 30, 1992 He was only 16 wks gestation.......meaning I was 4 mo. pregnant

© Jewnita Payne

[pr0udm0m_0f_3]

Sep. 15, 2009 at 10:06 AM

I too am sorry for your losses. That first poem got to me.

[tericared]

Sep. 16, 2009 at 7:38 PM

[sukainah]

Sep. 17, 2009 at 3:55 PM

Ahhh sis...those poems hit me hard...I also lost a 'lil one on December 21st, 2007 but I was only 10 weeks along...it's still so hard when you see the heart beating hard two weeks before..then nothing the next time..

...but Allah is Merciful