Promises to myself, and Back to work tonight.

[truthrowan]

I've avoided posting the first part of this for a while, because if I put it up, I'd have to stick to it. My will power since my Gallbladder surgery has been tested. I haven't been as good about my diet as I'd like. But if I post it here, I will HAVE to stick to it, no more "I'll do it tomorrow." So this is a promise I' ve made to myself.

1.) When the ice cream and sweets are gone, they are GONE. No more soda! No more unhealthy chips! No Cookies! I will not buy anymore for myself, and I won't eat any that come into the house except as a special treat. Yes, I was denied all goodies for quite a while, but that's no reason for me to go overboard now and wind up back on the fat wagon.

2.) I WILL start exercising, no more excuses. I did 20 sit ups last night, and didn't feel any burn, so I'll do 20 now and some more when I get home tonight. I don't want to get heavy again. I'm within 20 pounds of my goal weight, now is NOT the time to screw it up! I will spend at least 20 minutes on the bicycle. I bought it for Jericho, and he has used it once. I am NOT going to have it sitting there going to waste, that would be wasting money.

3.) Speaking of money, No more drinks, bottled water, soda, whatnot, at the store. No more candy at the check out lane. It's FOUR DOLLARS if we both get a drink and piece of candy, and like a thousand calories between the two. Multiply that by at least four store visits a week, and that's 16 dollars a week, 64 dollars a month. That's a hair cut for each of us, OR a game for Rico, OR a tank and half of gas, OR two NICE dinners out for me and Rico, OR Diapers for a month, toys for the boys, OR, most importantly, Two new tires for the van! In two months, I could get my new windshield I need!

4.) No more eating out unless it's a once in a while treat or an emergency. I can splurge today with coupons, but only if I'm willing to give up the nice dinner out I've been longing for (Although I could use my coupons for that nice dinner, lol.)

5.) I'm taking my lunch to work! Yes, it's strange, working in a restaurant, but I've GOT to resist temptation. I work in a burger, fries, and shakes restaurant. The only weight I gained (and then thankfully lost) During my pregnancy were when I worked there. I gained 6 pounds in two months. I'm sure not being pregnant, it'd come back on a LOT quicker. I can have a salad, but that'd be it. I can bring my own apple sauce.

Okay, that's it. I'm going to stick to it. I am! Say a prayer to help me out, but this time, I'm GOING TO DO IT!

And now, on with the rest of the post.

Well Folks, I start back to work tonight. I wish I'd started last week. Life would have been easier, I wanted to start back last week. I was READY to start last week. Now I've had an extra week at home with my boys, and I Don't want to go back! I want to be a SAHM mom again! We were getting a rhythm, getting used to it, and now, everything is going to be so much harder. I'm holding Douglas as I type, and I just want to cry. I don't want to leave my babies, the newborn or the two year old, but I've GOT to if we're going to make it financially. I know once I get back to work I'll manage not to be moppy, but still, It hurts so much right now. I'm gonna go spend time with my boys, instead of on here. Wish me a good night at work, and lots of tips, otherwise we'll not have any money for the next two weeks! I'll write about Tegs' B-day party later.