The worst day I could ever imagine

[ColleenF30]

I just came back from the doctors office, and the worst appointment I have ever had in my life.  Last week all was well.  This week, not so much.  I know I am not thinking clearly knowing I have to go in at 9 AM for a section (which was scheduled for Thurs anyway). 

They don't know what happened.  I don't know what happened.  The movement I still notice was noticed by them too.  It wasn't like movement stopped.  Nothing was out of the ordinary!  I do not freaking get this!

We couldn't find the heartbeat.  It was just there the other day.  What happened?

All I want are some answers.  I know that I may not get them.  Why?  Why over 38 weeks?  Now what?

Sorry for the rambling.  All I know is yesterday I was having a son, and now I am not.  Someone please make the world stop spinning.

[ratchetlee]

Sep. 21, 2009 at 8:14 PM

I am so sorry sweetie. 

HUGS!!

[debmom07]

Sep. 21, 2009 at 8:16 PM

God be with you though this process. why did they reschedule?

[ColleenF30]

Sep. 21, 2009 at 9:03 PM

They rescheduled because the baby has died.  I really don't feel like carrying any longer than I have to right now.

(Original Poster)

[KristiS11384]

Sep. 21, 2009 at 9:10 PM

I'm so sorry.

[BarbaraJane]

Sep. 21, 2009 at 9:19 PM

You are in my thoughts and prayers.  I am hoping that tomorrow renders a miracle for you.  God bless you and your little family.

[MemawBrie]

Sep. 21, 2009 at 9:37 PM

I'm so sorry sweetie.  I don't really have any words to make the loss any less painful.  Just know I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, and I'm sending you a big cyber {{{{ HUG }}}.  It's hard to understand why God allows certain things to happen, the only thing positive that I can think of is the verse in Romans 8:28 which says, "...we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose."

[kerrin813]

Sep. 21, 2009 at 9:50 PM

are they sure the baby died? or is it that they couldnt find the heartbeat?...oh i wish you well tomorrow and am soo sorry for your loss...

[pr0udm0m_0f_3]

Sep. 21, 2009 at 10:04 PM

Aw hun. I'm so very sorry. Wish there was something that could have been done.

[ColleenF30]

Sep. 22, 2009 at 12:09 AM

Kerrin we are sure....I saw the ultrasound myself...I told the tech not to turn it away.

(Original Poster)

[BarbaraJane]

Sep. 22, 2009 at 11:07 PM

Just wanted you to know I am still praying for you and your family.  Please keep us posted.  Take care and God bless.