Journey back to ME day 4.. ps not a good day...

[Dannille33]

Well, today has to be considered a bad day on the panic,anxiety,stress level. I am not sure why, it could have been the gloomy day, the fact that I didn't do much because the pill makes me a bit tired, or that I am 5 days away from PMS.. go figure.

So today I woke up .. I said to myself today is a good day. Yesterday was good.. and Tomorrow will be even better.

Then shortly after that I got tired.I spent most of the day just relaxing watching old 80's films. My fav. I thought, I'm relaxed and just taking it easy. For the most part the day went fine. Then towards 1pm I noticed that I was shaking a bit. Feeling a bit nervous... and then 4 pm came. It was time for my husband to go to work mind you he had just had 2 days off. So when he left I started to feel my head grow a bit dizzy, my arms and hands numbing, and I started to get a tight feeling in my chest.

I did what I could to contain it .. then I started breathing excersises. I couldn't focus.. He called on his way to work and that seemed to fuel the feeling I was having.He said he didn't feel well, we have all been passing around some cold. He mentioned that he might go in and come home early. Perhaps that peaked my happiness that I wouldn't have to be with out him long.

Then he hung up and my mind was going in all directions. I kept thinking why isn't the med working? Why? Then I thought well, maybe if I had taking the whole half of the pill instead of just half of the half. I have to convince myself that if I don't I am not going to benfit from taking it.

So I called my husband an hour after he got to work he states that he is going to leave but not to come home. No he is going to an er doctor . I am fuming and puzzled as to why he would choose to go to an ER instead of coming home going to bed and seeing the local doc we have seen for years tomorrow. I tried to explain how if he were to leave work he should come here. Men .. I really think they just don't get it!! And I dispise the women with men that do... LOL jk I just wish I had a more understanding man is all.

So now I am Journaling and I feel like I am finally coming down. From this nervous feeling, my net is slow as a camel for some reason.. that is how it always goes though right? When you need something to work right it never does.

Well, that's my Jounal entry for tonight..

(note to self)*Tomorrow take half pill instead of a fouth* LOL

Night all .... if you ever want support look me up.. I may be stressing and ect but we all need someone to lean on!And what better than a person that knows how it goes.

[maidn]

Sep. 23, 2009 at 12:23 AM

It's okay hon ... somedays are bound to be better than others ... eventually you will have more good than bad ... hang in there hon we are pulling for you ... Did you try the grounding methods I posted in group ... they might help

[Lb128f]

Sep. 23, 2009 at 5:49 AM

I'm sorry. I know you think maybe it wasn't such a great day...but, I think you did FINE! You are coming into your period week, your DH has been home 2 days, it's funky outside, you all are sick and you did NOT take the prescribed dosage on your meds...hmmm. Help yourself out there, Mama! :-) Yes, I agree...take the correct dosage today...should that be a WHOLE pill? :-) And, get out of the house! Go for a walk...go to the Zoo, a Park, a Playground...good luck...YOU are doing GREAT!

[carrie24]

Sep. 23, 2009 at 2:06 PM

Hey there girlfriend, you are doing fine, and eventhough you did not think yesterday was a good day, I think you did really well getting through the anxiety you were having. I hope you did take the whole dose you were supose to, that is so important. I am here for you, we all have our stresses, heck,life gets in my way everyday! BUT, I will always have my shoulder all ready for you to lean on when you need!!!