Taking things for granted!

[lovethebrowns]

My husband has been sick the past week and a half at first we just thought it was the flu but after days of him suffering and whatever was wrong with his leg started spreading he finally broke down and went to the hospital again and this time they decided he has Cellulitis that was caused by a type of Staph.  He's spent the night at the hospital from Friday and we are praying he gets to come home tomorrow.

I wasn't able to stay with him in the hospital which hurt me deeply.  It made me feel like I was letting him down which I know I'm not.  But I had to come back home to work my scheduled days and be with our little girl.  I know that I'm providing from my Family I just hated being without him for this long.

I work 2nd shift, so my hours are 2pm-11pm mostly.  When I pick my Daughter up at night and come home and put her to bed I just felt so lonely.  And then I freak myself and I think I hear things which makes me afraid to go to sleep so I stay up until I can't take it any long and I go lay down.  I never realized how much I rely on Jeremy.  Without him I feel.....empty.  I rely on him to do so much and I feel somewhat bad for it.

 

I just can't wait until he comes home from the hospital.  I miss my companion and I miss my husband and his sense of humor and I just miss holding him!! Being without like this makes me think of a lot of things.  It makes me want to hug, kiss, love, talk to him MORE AND MORE AND MORE because you don't really know what the future holds!

 

I LOVE YOU HONEY AND I CANT WAIT FOR U TO COME HOME.

[upcgirl]

Sep. 28, 2009 at 11:59 AM

awww hun you hang in thre he will be back home before you know it then you will be wishing he was gone again LOL

It wont be much longer