WELL THIS IS AN UPDATE. I HAVE DECIDED TO RETURN TO MY HUSBAND. YEA WE HAVE HAD OUR PROBLEMS BUT WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR OVER 8 YEARS AND THE BOYS NEED THEIR MOTHER AND FATHER. I KNOW THAT EVERYONE HAS THEIR PROBLEM IN THEIR RELATIONSHIP. WE JUST NEED TO START TALKING MORE AND WORKING THREW OUR PROBLEMS. I AM OK I GUESS. I DID FEEL VERY LONELY AND ABONDAND FOR AWHILE THERE BUT I SEE THAT HE IS TRYING TO CHANGE. HE IS STARTING TO SHOW ME MORE ATTENTION LIKE HE DID WHEN WE FIRST GOT TOGETHER. FROM WHAT I HAVE HEARD FROM OTHERS HE IS DOING GREAT WITH DRAEGAN AND LUCIAN. ZACH HAS TOLD ME THAT THERE ARE TIMES DURING THE DAY WHEN THE BOYS WILL CRY FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS AND THEY HAVE BEEN FEED AND CHANGED AND ALL HE CAN DO IS HOLD THEM. WE BOTH THINK THAT THEY ARE REALLY MISSING ME. WE GO TO COURT ON FRIDAY AND I SHOULD BE ABLE TO COME BACK HOME. UNTIL THEN I WILL BE STAYING WITH A GIRL THAT LIVES HERE IN THE APARTMENT COMPLEX. HER NAME IS JAMIE AND SHE HAS REALLY HELPED OUT MY FAMILY. I HAVE TO THANK THE PEOPLE AROUND HERE FOR HELPING OUT MY HUSBAND WHILE I WAS OFF DOING WHAT I WAS DOING. I DO HAVE SOME HURT FEELINGS. I WAS STARTING TO FALL IN LOVE WITH BRIAN. HE TREATED ME LIKE ZACH USE TO WHEN WE FIRST GOT TOGETHER. I AM JUST HOPING HE KEEPS HIS WORD AND GOES BACK TO HOW HE USE TO BE. I JUST WANT A HAPPY FAMILY. WE WAS THAT WAY ONCE AND I HOPE WE CAN GET BACK TO THAT. I WANT TO THANK ALL YOU GUYS HERE ON CAFEMOM FOR ALL THE SUPPORT YOU HAVE GIVING ME THROUGH THIS HARD TIME. I THINK I HAVE POST PARDUM DEPRESSION AND I AM GOING TO SEE A COUNSLOR AND GET ON SOME MEDS. TO HELP ME GET BACK ON TRACK. I NEVER FELT LIKE HURTING MYSELF OR MY TWINS BUT I WENT BACK TO MY OLD WAYS AND STARTED RUNNING AROUND LIKE A TEENAGER. I NEED TO QUIT THAT AND BE A GOOD MOTHER AND A GOOD WIFE. I AM PLANNING TO DO ALL THIS. HOPEFULLY WE CAN GET EVERYTHING BACK TO THE WAY IT USE TO BE. I AM STILL HAVING PROBLEMS ACCEPTING ZACHS BEST FRIEND FOR THE WAY HE TALKED ABOUT ME BUT MAYBE SOME TIME I WILL BE ABLE TO FORGIVE HIM AND WORK ON THAT FRIENDSHIP AGAIN.THANK YOU GUYS AGAIN. I WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW THINGS WENT AT COURT ON FRIDAY.

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Aasiyah
Sep. 28, 2009 at 11:15 PM

sometimes separations help the relations. hopefully everything will work out with you. advice.. don't try to go back to what you used to be with your hubby.. start new. fresh.. and create new memories that overshadow old ones.  and yes let go of teenage things..and do forgive his friend and try to be harmonious.  i wish you the best.

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MSuga...
Oct. 2, 2009 at 11:43 AM

good luck!  Thinking of you

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