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He shot himself last night.....
- Sep 30, 2009 at 9:26 AM
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....but he's still alive. The bullet went through his chin, shattered his soft palate and nasal septum, ruptured his eye so he'll never see out of it again and nicked his brain just enough to rob him of his memories and the ability to function as an adult. He will have to be re-taught how to do everything, like a little child, he will start from scratch. Aside from not remembering the faces of those who love him, maybe memory loss isn't such a bad thing. It will be a fresh start without the thoughts that brought him to the place that made ending his life seem the only answer in the first place and he will be free from the need for alcohol and drugs to function because he'll have no recollection of what it feels like to be drunk or high. Charlie has struggled with alcohol and drugs for the entire fifteen years that I've known him and he was always of the philosophy that if one pill made him feel good then six more would make him feel GREAT! He has been in and out of rehab, clean for a few months off and on, and struggled through depression the entire time. He had been clean since he'd gotten a DUI on labor day and for whatever unknown reason went on a binge beginning last Friday. We are not sure of the entire extensive list of what he may have gotten into but the two things we know for sure are alcohol and ecstasy. He started the weekend with a fairly large sum of money, his paycheck from the week and $400 he stole from his best friend, come Monday it was all gone and he resorted to stealing $40 worth of change from his parents house. That night they, his parents, came home from watching their grandson play football to find Charlie covered in blood but walking around and talking.They didn't realize he'd been shot until he was laid on the stretcher and they could see the entrance wound under his chin. Thankfully it was a small caliber bullet or he may not be getting the second chance he may not even want. Seeing him in the hospital bed wasn't easy, he didn't resemble himself a bit, with two black eyes, face encrusted with blood, tubes coming in and out of his face, and his whole head being about four times it's normal size. You would think I would be scared of seeing that sight, but I wasn't. It was too important for me to talk to him, to let him know that I was there and that God loves him. I laid hands on him and prayed and the final thing I told him was that Lee, my LH, wasn't ready to see his face yet and that God had a purpose for him to fulfill on this earth. When I mentioned my husband's name, Charlie repeatedly squeezed my hand. While he was already struggling before Lee died, he has used his death as an excuse ever since to keep on drinking because he can't take the pain and the memories. I tried to explain that the last thing Lee would want would be for someone to lift a drink in homage to him, an alcoholic that died drinking and driving, and that his wish would be for someone, anyone, but especially someone he cared for, to learn from his mistake and clean up for God's sake. Apparently addiction has a much louder and persistent voice than I do. My prayer is that God heal this man of all physical and mental affliction, including the addictions he once suffered, and use his life as a testimony to help heal others from alcohol and drug abuse. I pray that one day Charlie stand up in front of a crowd and with tears in his eyes explain the place he came from, how God healed him, and the dangers of imbibing in illicit substances. I pray for a miracle. I pray that one day Charlie will have his dream of a loving wife and family of his own fulfilled. I pray that God will dull the memories of Charles and Mitzi, his parents, and free them from the pain of the vivid sight of their son and the aftermath of his actions. Thank you, to everyone, that will be in agreement with me and offer their own prayers.
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Wow. I just read about my brother through and through while reading that, however he never attemted suicide. My brother was addicted to coke and an alcholic. He would be clean for months but the moment he had that one social beer with his brothers or buddies... it was a gaurentee we wouldnt see him for a week or two and he would be stealing money to buy more coke. Addiction is a terrible disease. I don'tknow who this person is to you.. your friend, brother, cousin- i don't know but he needs lots of prayer and needs to be under the blood of Jesus. He has alot of demons in him that he needs to have cast out. Talk to your pastor about it and see if he knows someone who can do that. Because spiritual warfare is very very serious. When my brother had his demons cast out of him.. my mom said it about killed him. Literally.. about killed him. My brother went through all of that but refused to give up his skoal (tobacco) so he woundup down that road again a few months later. Its a terrible cycle. So my point in this is that just because he won't have his "memories" of what feeling high is like.. he will still have those demonic spirits within him and they will continue to have control of his life. So he will most likely endup down that path again. This man needs lots of prayer and lots of support. God can heal spiritually and physically. It will be along road. Good luck
Amy, do you think this is something I can accomplish myself through my own prayers over him?
Yes, prayer can make miricles happen. I will ask my mom about a book on spiritual warfare if your interested on reading about it. It's a very deep thing to understand.
But all things I truly believe can be acheived by prayer. So pray pray pray. And never give up faith on him!
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Shucks hun. I have to stand in your shoes as well and hope things turn out for the best. You have a wonderful huge heart and an understanding to communicate with him. Keep it up! HUGGS!
- auntj
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